Come Back! Return to Your God!

^1-3 O Israel, come back! Return to your God! You're down but you're not out.
Prepare your confession
and come back to God.
Pray to him, "Take away our sin,
accept our confession.
Receive as restitution
our repentant prayers.
Assyria won't save us;
horses won't get us where we want to go.
We'll never again say 'our god'
to something we've made or made up.
You're our last hope. Is it not true
that in you the orphan finds mercy?"

^4-8 "I will heal their waywardness.
I will love them lavishly. My anger is played out.
I will make a fresh start with Israel.
He'll burst into bloom like a crocus in the spring.
He'll put down deep oak tree roots,
he'll become a forest of oaks!
He'll become splendid—like a giant sequoia,
his fragrance like a grove of cedars!
Those who live near him will be blessed by him,
be blessed and prosper like golden grain.
Everyone will be talking about them,
spreading their fame as the vintage children of God.
Ephraim is finished with gods that are no-gods.
From now on I'm the one who answers and satisfies him.
I am like a luxuriant fruit tree.
Everything you need is to be found in me."

⁹ If you want to live well,
make sure you understand all of this.
If you know what's good for you,
you'll learn this inside and out.
God's paths get you where you want to go.
Right-living people walk them easily;
wrong-living people are always tripping and stumbling.

Hosea 14 (The Message)

Again fear comes in and eats me up. Is it repeating itself? I know it in my mind and it has not been put to test. It’s like a practical to me on what you have though me Lord. Is this shake down process? I’m scared Lord, really scared!

My legs are feeble and it needs Your divine support.

Lord I don’t want to walk down this road again Lord. But if it’s Your will, let it be. I know you are in control and I know you are still God. There is a reason why we call you Lord. It is because You know the best for us and the best in us.

Teach and heal me Lord Jesus, as I’m filled with lust, faithlessness, selfishness and other wickedness in me so may your will be done in my life! Teach me to turn from my evil ways.

*never mind the words, talking to myself

Last Saturday (22^nd march 2008) I went to Queens Bay Mall… yes to met up with my GF…yes is

GF*

Well meet up with BERNARD CHEAH. He is my long time friend, from KL.. He has been posted her for his job. How many of you have a journalist friend? Well I do!! So don’t be jealous ya!

Back to my point that day went to his office here we worked, and I can tell it was nice!! Hahha…We end up eating dinner at 1130pm as he was finish up his report on an event in QB Mall which his editor want it to send to the central office!

The fellowship was fun as we got to share and talk about what we have missed out since the last time we met.

So BC I hope you enjoy your new home here in Penang Island ya. May god bless and open up your eyes as you trust in him in your every step.

*GF = Good Friend

As human, I found out something that all of us human need (Well may be I’m not the 1^st person that notices this, but I’ve and still learning from this):

Acceptance!!

Yes that is what every one are looking for, acceptance. Look around you, the things that people do. As a student you study to get accepted to further your studies/work. As a politician you do things so that it might benefit the majority which will gain the support (acceptance) of the people. We meet date lines so that our work can be accepted and not be rejected.

How??

What stair up this though in me in the week end was the experience on Easter Sunday morning; I was giving pamphlet around the Air Itam market area. The pamphlet is about the resurrection of Our Lord Jesus Christ. Why? Because there are many people out there in Penang that has not know of the truth and about Jesus. Oh boy.. The identity as a Christian that I was put to the test.

From the start, I was struggling to make the move. Just a morning greeting “Good Morning auntie, uncle and…” was hard for me. What more giving them the pamphlet that written “Jesus Christ, Rolls From The Death?” As I was giving out the pamphlet, I felt shamed and fear!! Yes I felt ashamed of the good news! Call me anything you want but yes, I was ashamed of the good news! To be more in-depth, I was afraid of rejection. I was afraid that people that I approach would not accept the pamphlet!

¹⁹We love each other^[a] because he loved us first.

1 John 4:19 (NLT)

So now imagine Jesus walking on the streets that time on Palm Sunday, he was celebrated like a king a grand welcome into the city. And few days later it is this crown that welcome him in rejected him. That is not it; he has displayed the highest love for the people. He died for this people who persecute him to the cross!

¹⁹We, though, are going to love—love and be loved. First we were loved, now we love. He loved us first.

1 John 4:19 (The Message)

From this experience, I have put a new meaning to the phrase “love others as your self” Others here can mean people you know and people that you don’t know. For instance, the passer-by in the market, how to love them like Jesus love them? How to share the good news to them?

One thing I’ve learn is that they are not rejecting me but God. And despite these rejections that I (we) face, it should not be the reason that I (we) as Christian be sad about but to be ever more charge up for god by drawing power from him and to ever see the need in this people! It really made me think and reflect on how great God’s love for us.

I really thank God for this little angel whom God has made known to me! As this little has none stop encouraging me to grow in this area and to accept of who I’m from the start till now. Thank you angel and I thank God for dying on the cross for me. All Glory To God!!

I’m becoming lazier….

Exam near already….

Why is this happening now…..??

…Committing everything unto Him, as lots of things going through my mind. It has been along thing I’ve never ponder on this dusty section of my brain.

“His mercy is new every morning...”

This is what I’ve learn this week. Every time I stumble, He raises me up. And I know He loves me so much, He even knows the numbers of hair on my head. Teach me to rely on You as I live my life oh Lord.

You are the centre of my life; not my study not my work or not my job but it is you Lord. Everything revolves around You and Your holiness and Your greatness!!

p/s ³³ Seek the Kingdom of God[a] above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need.

Matthew 6:33 (New Living Translation)

Today it rain heavily as I drove back from my late lunch outside in Parit Buntar. By the time I reach campus it rain very heavy. But I can tell God let the rain down at just the right moment and at the right place. Anyway, God is never wrong!! Thank God.

Nevertheless, I stayed in the car, driving round and round in campus till I got boring and decided to do some thing crazy, to drive outside campus. Well, I took the old “Ampang Jajar” way and enter back into campus via the main gate. On the expressway, I stepped on the throttle to the max but the condition of the road did not allow me to do as such, so I abort my plan to speed up in raining day. In this occasion of driving around I’ve done few things with the car:-

1. Tried emergency bread on my car. Lessen the effect on the tyres as the road is wet thus produce less friction. Enjoy when the car skid.

2. Finish off the windscreen sprinkler (that is what I call it) cause it was filled with soap which means I cant use in normal days to wipe off my windscreen.

3. Another reason why I drove so fast is to “wash the car”. It might sound stupid but I did it. Hahahha…

It rains almost everyday here in campus. One will find the next thing after a heavy rain is a sunny day or vice versa. The campus well known around the world drainage system REDAC. And well, for the moment it is still in research period so expecting small floods around campus..

Really miss updating this blog… But before I start I just wanna share some thing about time…

What I’ve learn this few weeks is that, we are all given 24hours to live.. With these 24 hours, that God has given us, some has made great success with it to gain wealth, use the given 24hours to get good grades in the exams and some use it to do the things they like and some use it to enjoy life to the fullest.. Now bear in mind that it is this God who gave us the time we have to give an account on how we spend this time given to us one day. Just want to remind every one and of cause my self of the story that Jesus has though us in the of the servants..

Parable of the Three Servants

14 “Again, the Kingdom of Heaven can be illustrated by the story of a man going on a long trip. He called together his servants and entrusted his money to them while he was gone. 15 He gave five bags of silver^[a] to one, two bags of silver to another, and one bag of silver to the last—dividing it in proportion to their abilities. He then left on his trip.

16 “The servant who received the five bags of silver began to invest the money and earned five more. 17 The servant with two bags of silver also went to work and earned two more. 18 But the servant who received the one bag of silver dug a hole in the ground and hid the master’s money.

19 “After a long time their master returned from his trip and called them to give an account of how they had used his money. 20 The servant to whom he had entrusted the five bags of silver came forward with five more and said, ‘Master, you gave me five bags of silver to invest, and I have earned five more.’

21 “The master was full of praise. ‘Well done, my good and faithful servant. You have been faithful in handling this small amount, so now I will give you many more responsibilities. Let’s celebrate together!^[b]’

22 “The servant who had received the two bags of silver came forward and said, ‘Master, you gave me two bags of silver to invest, and I have earned two more.’

23 “The master said, ‘Well done, my good and faithful servant. You have been faithful in handling this small amount, so now I will give you many more responsibilities. Let’s celebrate together!’

24 “Then the servant with the one bag of silver came and said, ‘Master, I knew you were a harsh man, harvesting crops you didn’t plant and gathering crops you didn’t cultivate. 25 I was afraid I would lose your money, so I hid it in the earth. Look, here is your money back.’

26 “But the master replied, ‘You wicked and lazy servant! If you knew I harvested crops I didn’t plant and gathered crops I didn’t cultivate, 27 why didn’t you deposit my money in the bank? At least I could have gotten some interest on it.’

28 “Then he ordered, ‘Take the money from this servant, and give it to the one with the ten bags of silver. 29 To those who use well what they are given, even more will be given, and they will have an abundance. But from those who do nothing, even what little they have will be taken away. 30 Now throw this useless servant into outer darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.’

Matthew 25:14-30 (New Living Translation)

Well it is how me make use of our time…

Anyway… I’ll do a round up of what I’ve been up to this few weeks as I was away.. All this is because God has provided me and has sustain me thus this far! All glory to Him!!

1. Did my first night photography with Tze Teng. Enjoyed the day together. Took picture around Jaya Café and Lembaran. Spend the time snaping from 9:30pm to 12:30am!!

2. Join “Projek Warga” Bahasa Team representing Desasiswah Jaya. With God’s grace, we our team won 1^st prize and each member are rewarded with RM50!! Was a good experience as our topic was “Masalah Ayam di Sekitar USM Kampus Kejuruteraan”

3. Found out that I’m very good... I seriously mean really very good in this game!! 4. Got a new phone!! Paid RM100 for the style and the coolness.. 5. Thank God that he allows the completion of the video..

There are lots more to say and to blog.. Like I always say… It’s all about being written and not being read!

My Offering

Nichole Nordeman

Verse 1

If You made me like the grass that is green
Growing tall and covering the hills above me
Maybe I would pray for sunshine and a little rain
To fall now and then to make me lovely
I could be a place where sheep could graze
Or barefoot feet could play
And I would grow and grow and hope You'd bend down low
To hear me sing my offering

(Chorus)
Open up the heavens, open up the sky
All of Your creation wants to testify
I have a song, so let the earth sing along
'Cause I just want to praise You

Verse 2

If You made me to be a cloud in the sky
Found the perfect place way up high where I could hover
Maybe I would pray for skies that were blue
Or a sunset or two to show Your colours
Or maybe I might be
A mountain strong and steep
But I would try and stand as tall as I can
And I would sing my offering

(Chorus)

And the sun every morning cannot wait to shine
And the stars every evening are all standing by to light the sky Give the rocks and the stones voices of their own If we forget to sing praises to our King

http://entol85.multiply.com/music/item/45/My_Offering

It's nearing election day in Malaysia. I , myself are not eligible to vote as I'm not a register voter.. So i guess it would be another 5more years for me to vote and take up the responsibility of a citizen of Malaysia

All I'm Living For

Album: Always And Foreve
Written: Henry Seeley of Planetshakers

Verse 1

Here I am waiting for you,
Here I am reaching out to you,
I will run into your arms again,
And I’m longing for your touch once again,

Chorus
Take my life, everything, all I am,
An offering for you,
Cause you’re all I’m living for
Take my heart, all of me,
I’m laying it down, to worship you my god
Cause you’re all I’m living for,

Verse 2
I will run into your open arms,
To your love, that washes away my fears
I am found, deep in this mystery,
Cause you’re all I’m living for

Bridge
Cause you’re all,
You’re all I’m living for,
Jesus you’re all,
All I’m living for.