After finishing 3 out of my 4 exam paper today… I was really worried that I won’t be able to pass the paper (Math.) I do have problem doing maths because I never seems to get the right answer (either I key in the wrong value into my calculator / I miss read the value or others…). I also had the same worries as I finish my material science and mechanic for the pass week…

I really have difficulty in doing those papers and I wander if I could even get ¼ of the whole mark they offer!!! (Well it is really this bad!!)… As I was biking with my friend back to my room… I told my friend my problem that I had. Then he answered me with this:

“Why worry, I see a lot of student here never sleep before exam. Why? Because they want to get an A. What for… The different of salary for a graduate with 1^st class honours and those who didn’t is just around rm300-400… And not ALL who get 1^st class could get a job… We are asked to get A when we were in school, so to get a place in university or colleges…”

The moment after that, this question strike me “What’s the real reason for Living??” Then I see my past start to pass me by in my thought…. (This is how it looks like as I sum it in a flow chart):

For me as a little boy I have no choice but to follow our parents. Thus future should be good… But what is we the choice??? The worst think is that every one will die…

Than I really feel what the meaning of living?? Why am I here in the 1^st place?? (This is the 1^st time I have such a deep thought about LIFE) I also understood that why a purpose in life is needed and why is it important!!!

But thanks to Jesus I know my life do not end when I die… serious… After so long being a Christian… I even read the book “the purpose driven life” then I don’t understand the real meaning of ‘purpose’!!

Ahhhhhhhhhh!!! I called Bernard to day and I found out that... I'm going to miss this year's HUGE camp!! The last HuGE Camp I went was the 1 in Penang where PlanetShakers came to Malaysia.. After missing last years HUGE i told my self that I'm not going to miss another HUGE!! But it turn out that I'll miss this year as well due to the overlaping with my Army trainning camp, that is about 2weeks!! From the 24th Nov. to the 15th Dec. On the 15th is the final day of both camp!! I've never miss a single HUGE Camp since the 1st 1 that is in Melacca in 2000 (camp baju is the green 1) (same with this year, but at Air Keruh I think..) until last year's 1...

The aim for me to go to this camp is:

1. Dont forget, is to seek God. (Get the fire!!) Motivation. The topic they have there for each session is very intresting!! Last time i use to go for the BGR Talk... Kind of fun( get to see some pretty girl AND ALSO GAIN KNOWLEDGE la)... Then going with kav. , fook sim and more...

2. To catch up with old buddies since I'm been gone to the North for some 2 years now!! (sad)

3. To know know the youth (not that i'm old!!) from my church (most of the church youth and teens go for this camp) as there is always new faces that have been promoted from PowerKids to Teens and from RCKL Teen to RCKL Youth... Also those fella that bring friends along with them!!

4. Also since I'm a guy... So guys you know what I mean la... (this is just sampingan) (it is also said in the Bible that if you Lust with your heart, you are committing adultery)(got you there!! haha..) what i ment was, know other teens and youth from other church. Guy or Girl they are the same... haha... Get new ideas from them about their church activitys!!

**** Those who get to go I say enjoy it and let God move... Ask him to work in you... you can go to all kinds of camp and conferences and after few weeks you are back to your OLD self... Is not about the music and the band or speaker but God... Talking about GOD is a serious thing... Blessing from god is the FUN for forever!!! So ASK!
"For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened." matthew 7:8

**** Another thing is that don't sleep late cause the next morning buring service... you will see every ones head looking down and eyes close!!! haha...

GTG got exam in 6more hours which me luck!!!

Haha I saw this is kind of funny and i hope you all will have a good laugh... Anyway the last time i REALLY watch Power Rangers was i think i was in standerd 4.... wooo it has been long... I was in to the Power Ranger movie where White Ranger (or green ranger??) save the day... haha...

My 2nd digi camera is going to me the Nikon D50!! Yes I'm going pro... At least I'm trying to be one or to get the "Pro Feel"... I'm planing to get it in the mid of next year as I guess i could buy the camera, a batter lens than provided and an external flash the total cost for all this at this time would be around 4K... If i were to buy the camera it self... it would be around 2.5K now... Muhahaha.... I'm not "Kaya" but one who know what I want and learn to store up my money to get what i want (I hope I'm that what i say i would).... haha.. If i some how one day ask you to borrow me some money... Please dont say no ok?? hahah... In a mist of Exam I'm still able to think of what i want haha...

p/s: ya hope you would pray for me as my exam starts on the 8th nov and end on the 18th nov... and also my army trainning ya... thanks!!

As i finish logging this blog... I'm just 5% of my revision and i have less than 3 days to finish it before the 1st exam!!! "What was i doing all this while" you may ask.... Well.. watching movies and dramas (thanks got I'm not into anime)... Thanks to the ting call the "Intranet/network" I'm able to download all kinds of stuff!! latest movie, drama, anime(for you all naruto fans.. the latest episode is i think 105++ i think .. I'm not a fan.. DAH..), series, programmes and much more!! (sorry no PORN... may be got but you need to be smart to find it la.. HEHE..) Thanks to this "Network" I'm able to finish my study time with watching all this type of dramas... and all my harddisk are full.... if I were to get a 160Gb hardisk... i dont think it will be enough... some of the screenshort are as below...

Anyway I'll be comming back to KL early of DEC. after my RUTO tranning... 1 week at USM main campus and another is at the Deep Jungle of Kulim (if you dontknow where is it.. its in Kedah).. I hope I'll be able to "tahan"....

Ya i hope it's not too late to Wish HAPPY DIPA/RAYA or RAYA/DIPA?? well ether way to cut the story short.. to those... you know who you are... Well hape you enjoy you holidays la...

this is the view of my desktop.... well... my comp. is running kind of slow now... dontknow why may due to the overload of programme running....

Smallville... i was not into it at first... but after i downloaded a episode of it... i got stick to it!!! well now i got the whole season4 burn on my CD-Rs... who want to watch can come and ask me... now i'm waitting for the 6th epi. of season 5 ... the latest 1.... haha.. just that is hari raya... every one go home... meaning that their comp. is off... mean that i cant download!!! alamak!!! haha

Revolving the doors of vengeance is the latest Hong Kong Drama... Its a long welllllll... i give this seris a 5 out of 5... i have the whole 30 episodes.... it took me 3 days to watch all of it while my friend took 2 days... just to remind you that my exam is next week... on the 8th of oct 05.... hahaha!!! please pray for me...

the "final days" before the 1 semester exam!!!

shine.... the sun...

a view from the the "tasik"

an afternoon view in my uni college