My roommate took the time to go make up this picture as we getting near to the finals... hahha... just wanna share this with you.

Hallelujah!! I’m speech less now as I can only sing Hallelujah and adore God’s Love in my life. In this pass weeks I’ve been through a lot. Stressful moment, moment where I almost gave up, moment of regrets, sadness, frustration and moment of total blurriness.

A lot of time I’ve the feeling of letting go, giving up the things that I do. Studying some time sound so meaningless. A lot of time I’ve loss my focus on God. But with his grace has captured my constant wondering heart to Him. He always led me to back to his love.

Been sleeping late, really late. Only 3 to 4 hours of sleep per day. But God has sustained me with his Love and his grace.

As the CF had the last committee meeting last Sunday, we sang this song Hallelujah (Your Love Is Amazing). This song really raises me up. Really got me the assurance that God is there and he is in control over every thing. He is high above all.

This is the best song I've listen to date!! All I'm doing now is singing Hallelujah, Hallelujah, and Hallelujah! As I go through the storm in life, often I get distracted by the things around me. This that capture my heart and as the Bible says, "the treasure is where the heart will be".

This song tells me that true joy from the Lord will always grow in those who dwell in his goodness and those who worship him with all their heart. It is very true that God's love will always make a person sing. I'm one of those.

Because the songs says that His love is steady and unchanging, His love is a mountain, firm beneath my feet, His love is a mystery, how You gently lift me. His love is surprising, I can feel it rising. Every time I see You, all Your goodness shines through.

Hallelujah (Your Love Is Amazing)

Verse 1:
Your love is amazing, steady and unchanging,
Your love is a mountain, firm beneath my feet,
Your love is a mystery, how You gently lift me,
When I am surrounded, Your love carries me.

Chorus:
Hallelujah, hallelujah,
Hallelujah, Your love makes me sing,
Hallelujah, hallelujah,
Hallelujah, Your love makes me sing.

Verse 2:
Your love is surprising, I can feel it rising,
All the joy that's growing deep inside of me,
Every time I see You, all Your goodness shines through,
And I can feel this God song, rising up in me.

I guess this song sum up my speechless thanks giving unto God. Unto the God who created the heaven and the earth and created all things.

Have you ever feel like walking on the clouds? Ya..! The clouds that you see on the day sky every other day except you are from the Sahara which very rare to see clouds in the day sky. Today is the day that I felt so. Walking on water bed. Floating and if you are not careful you will fall anytime.

It is the hang over I got from not sleeping well. It is driving me crazy now and I’m about to go nuts!!

Still have one more test to go and without mentioning the finals!! Eerrrhhhh….

“Those who plant in tears
will harvest with shouts of joy.

They weep as they go to plant their seed,
but they sing as they return with the harvest.”

Psalm 126:5-6 (NLT)

In two occasions I snapped!
Burst out my angry side.
God was there for me.
Thank God for His spirit and power that has covered me through the seasons.
He has though me and gave me chance and opportunities to learn.

It has been one week since my last entry anyway I will post more about what happen in this pass week of silences.

Lately I find it hard for me to express what I feel and experiencing. Just can’t find a person to bounce my sadness, stress and of cause experiences of them. Really hard to find just a person

Some time feel like I’m weight down by all that I’m not mentioning the design that I’ve finish.

I took this story from Aaron’s most resent blog that touched me.. I want to share it with you because I think this is worth sharing! Read on and I encourage you to take a moment. It took me few days to digest and I’m still digesting now. Come to think of your life. How things can turn out if you were to be like this guy.

“John is the kind of guy you love to hate. He is always in a good mood and always has something positive to say. When someone would ask him how he was doing, he would reply, "If I were any better, I would be twins!"

He was a natural motivator. If an employee was having a bad day, John was there telling the employee how to look on the positive side of the situation. Seeing this style really made me curious, so one day I went up and asked him, "I don't get it! You can't be a positive person all of the time. How do you do it?"

He replied, "Each morning I wake up and say to myself, you have two choices today. You can choose to be in a good mood or ... you can choose to be in a bad mood. I choose to be in a good mood. "Each time something bad happens, I can choose to be a victim.....or......I can choose to learn from it. I choose to learn from it. Every time someone comes to me complaining, I can choose to accept their complaining...... or... I can point out the positive side of life. I choose the positive side of life."

"Yeah, right, it's not that easy," I protested. "Yes, it is," he said. "Life is all about choices. When you cut away all the junk, every situation is a choice. You choose how you react to situations. You choose how people affect your mood. You choose to be in a good mood or bad mood. The bottom line: It's your choice how you live your life."

I reflected on what he said. Soon hereafter, I left the Tower Industry to start my own business. We lost touch, but I often thought about him when I made a choice about life instead of reacting to it. Several years later, I heard that he was involved in a serious accident, falling some 60 feet from a communications tower. After 18 hours of surgery and weeks of intensive care, he was released from the hospital with rods placed in his back. I saw him about six months after the accident. When I asked him how he was, he replied, “If I were any better, I'd be twins Want to see my scars?" I declined to see his wounds, but I did ask him what had gone through his mind as the accident took place.

"The first thing that went through my mind was the well-being of my soon-to-be born daughter," he replied. "Then, as I lay on the ground, I remembered that I had two choices: I could choose to live..... or...I could choose to die. I chose to live."

"Weren't you scared? Did you lose consciousness?" I asked. He continued, "..The paramedics were great. They kept telling me I was going to be fine. But when they wheeled me into the ER and I saw the Expressions on the faces of the doctors and nurses, I got really scared. In their eyes, I read 'he's a dead man'. I knew I needed to take action."

"What did you do?" I asked. "Well, there was a big burly nurse shouting questions at me," said John." She asked if I was allergic to anything. “Yes, I replied." The doctors and nurses stopped working as they waited for my reply. I took a deep breath and yelled, 'Gravity’. “Over their laughter, I told them, "I am choosing to live. Operate on me as if I am alive, not dead."

He lived, thanks to the skill of his doctors, but also because of his amazing attitude........I learned from him that every day we have the choice to live fully. Attitude, after all, is everything. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." After all today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday. Think Positive & Live.”

Now, this story really touches me when I read it the first time around. I almost broke into tears as I ponder more on this story. As I ponder further I’ve come to realise where is God in the whole picture?

I don’t know if this story is real or not, but I know that it is very hard for a man (and women) to be like so in the story. As for me, I can say that there must be a focus in life. The focus for us human on earth, a creature created in God’s own image is God and God alone. If a non Christian can be positive of life, what more we as Christian can offer in the salvation in Christ that we have?

I’m being very dangerous here in making this statement as such. As a Christian, as we go through the trouble of life. We acknowledge the trouble we face, be it sad, heart broken, financial problem and etc. We acknowledge it as we allow God to take charge of the situation that we are in.

Acknowledgement is a BIG word. So don’t take it lightly in this context. It takes perseverance and lot more than what we can take. Even to the stage where we need to let go of our problems.

Acknowledgement of your problem to Christ is not escapism.

⁸ in every way having been troubled, but not having been hemmed in; having been perplexed, but not utterly at a loss; having been persecuted, but not having been forsaken; ⁹ having been thrown down, but not having been destroyed;

2 Corinthians 4:7-12