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I'm on Drugs...

I’m on Paracetamol (panadol la) for a week now. With the growing frequent of headaches, have me no choice to do so. Today is my 1st paper; well I did not that good. But praise the Lord I’m still able to take the exam. During the 3hourse paper feeling of throwing out and bursting into loud shout because of my pain!!

Came back from exam with the terrible headache! After that, went to church to have EUP (engineering management) group discussion before the exam this wed afternoon. Then I asked Derrick to drive, was disorientated and can’t make sound judgement then.

But thank God it soon ends! And I am now well again. Don’t dare to say what will I feel after I wake up tomorrow…

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and I Love You...

In Your freedom

Hillsong Savoir King

Verse 1

I search for You God of strength
I bow to You in my brokenness
And no other King could have so humbly come
To save my soul and heal my heart

I have nothing more than all You offer me
There is nothing else that's of worth to me

Chorus
And I love You Lord
You rescued me
You are all that I want
You're all that I need

Verse 2
I pray to You God of peace
I rest in You my cares released
I have nothing more than all You offer me
There is nothing else that's of worth to me

Bridge
In Your freedom I will live
In Your freedom I will live
I offer devotion, I offer devotion

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Words..

May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, O LORD, my Rock and my Redeemer.(Psalm 19:14)

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Unwell..

Thank you Lord for the things in life that you have gave me. I pray that you will wash me as white as the snow. I’m really sorry for the things in life that I’ve done things that sinful and bring shame to your name. Let not this doing take me always from your grace. Oh Lord….

Lord I surrender all my unwell to you. All my pain, confusion, stress in short my afflictions to you. With your grace and your mighty hand, I always believe you have great plans for me. So as I continue on my studies Lord, please guide me. Because in you there is hope and with hope I will find faith and in faith I know that you have loved me since the starts of days.

Take me in your present and make me into the person that you want me to be. Take all that I’m to worship you. Let your light shine so the world may see Jesus Christ is Lord.

Thanks to my dear Big sis, she gave me this verse as an encouragement!!

11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Jeremiah 29:11

Amen!

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Falling short..

Head pain

Saturation mind

Stressed

Worry

Consumed

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Oopss....

You Are 45% Selfish

You are quite balanced. You are able to compromise when it's in the best interests of those involved.
But you're no pushover. If something is important to you, you'll get it!

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Bright and Shine..

1 A Psalm or Song for the sabbath day. It is good to give thanks to Jehovah, and to sing praises to Your name, O Most High; 2 to show forth Your loving-kindness in the morning, and Your faithfulness every night;

Psalm 92:1-2

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Oh Lord..

Well today I enjoyed my own time cycling out to ryas to have my dinner. The day was fun and nice. After all I’m back from worship practice for this Sunday.

I’m doing so cause I found myself in a state where I don’t know if I’m moody or emo. I’m under the cloud today. May be because of the sleep I had. Too much of it I guess…

As I sit alone in the table in ryas. I can see happy faces all around me. Laughter and joy always fills the place. I enjoy looking at people there. Some more is Friday night, so one can see the place will never be empty.. One group go the and another group come and take their place..

I went out 1130pm and came back to campus around 1215am.. Kind of enjoying the time alone. Hahahh… as I cycle and as I sit there alone my heart seek God and look to Him always!!

Amen!!

As my big day coming, I’m planning to run always to a quiet place where I can celebrate with few friends of this occasion in Penang. It’s a time of celebration, time out, time with God and most of all a time to reflect and to cry over things in the pass so to let go. Time to do the things I like, taking pictures hhahah… and to observe the environment. Can’t wait for the big day.

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Dine..

As now I’m thinking of things in my life, I just don’t know what I’ll get and what I’ll be in the future.

There is some thing that I need to look onto God. Inviting him in to dine with me. To let him examine my life as a living creature created for me and to worship him.

“Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart.”

(Psalm 37:4)

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New!!

Congratulations to FES and the members as they have set up their new web page. The new look some say like redio station and some say… hahha… anyway I also wanna congratulate my POPO for starting this from scratch. Not even one template was used… hahahha… congratulation!! link are FES

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Did You Know??

Did You Know

Artist: Hillsong kids album: Jesus my Super hero

Verse 1
Did You know that someone out to give
You lives in me that other people do
Did You know He die on the cross
Did You know His name is Jesus

Chorus:
I want thank You that everything You've done
You love me and gave Your only Son
To die on the cross for my sin
To die on the cross for my sin

Verse 2:
Did You know He rose from the dead
Is risen now He will be back again
Did You know He's loving You today
Did You know He's the only way

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Assurance


Assured
Hope is not a vague sense of possibility but a profound assurance of reality.

"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." -Hebrews 11:1

Assurance.
A profound assurance of reality.

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Exam's dates..

My roommate took the time to go make up this picture as we getting near to the finals... hahha... just wanna share this with you.

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Hallelujah (Your Love Is Amazing)

Hallelujah!! I’m speech less now as I can only sing Hallelujah and adore God’s Love in my life. In this pass weeks I’ve been through a lot. Stressful moment, moment where I almost gave up, moment of regrets, sadness, frustration and moment of total blurriness.

A lot of time I’ve the feeling of letting go, giving up the things that I do. Studying some time sound so meaningless. A lot of time I’ve loss my focus on God. But with his grace has captured my constant wondering heart to Him. He always led me to back to his love.

Been sleeping late, really late. Only 3 to 4 hours of sleep per day. But God has sustained me with his Love and his grace.

As the CF had the last committee meeting last Sunday, we sang this song Hallelujah (Your Love Is Amazing). This song really raises me up. Really got me the assurance that God is there and he is in control over every thing. He is high above all.

This is the best song I've listen to date!! All I'm doing now is singing Hallelujah, Hallelujah, and Hallelujah! As I go through the storm in life, often I get distracted by the things around me. This that capture my heart and as the Bible says, "the treasure is where the heart will be".

This song tells me that true joy from the Lord will always grow in those who dwell in his goodness and those who worship him with all their heart. It is very true that God's love will always make a person sing. I'm one of those.

Because the songs says that His love is steady and unchanging, His love is a mountain, firm beneath my feet, His love is a mystery, how You gently lift me. His love is surprising, I can feel it rising. Every time I see You, all Your goodness shines through.

Hallelujah (Your Love Is Amazing)

Verse 1:
Your love is amazing, steady and unchanging,
Your love is a mountain, firm beneath my feet,
Your love is a mystery, how You gently lift me,
When I am surrounded, Your love carries me.

Chorus:

Hallelujah, hallelujah,
Hallelujah, Your love makes me sing,
Hallelujah, hallelujah,
Hallelujah, Your love makes me sing.

Verse 2:
Your love is surprising, I can feel it rising,
All the joy that's growing deep inside of me,
Every time I see You, all Your goodness shines through,
And I can feel this God song, rising up in me.

I guess this song sum up my speechless thanks giving unto God. Unto the God who created the heaven and the earth and created all things.

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Blur-blur..


Have you ever feel like walking on the clouds? Ya..! The clouds that you see on the day sky every other day except you are from the Sahara which very rare to see clouds in the day sky. Today is the day that I felt so. Walking on water bed. Floating and if you are not careful you will fall anytime.

It is the hang over I got from not sleeping well. It is driving me crazy now and I’m about to go nuts!!

Still have one more test to go and without mentioning the finals!! Eerrrhhhh….

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In Search Of..

“Those who plant in tears
will harvest with shouts of joy.

They weep as they go to plant their seed,
but they sing as they return with the harvest.”

Psalm 126:5-6 (NLT)



In two occasions I snapped!
Burst out my angry side.
God was there for me.
Thank God for His spirit and power that has covered me through the seasons.
He has though me and gave me chance and opportunities to learn.

It has been one week since my last entry anyway I will post more about what happen in this pass week of silences.

Lately I find it hard for me to express what I feel and experiencing. Just can’t find a person to bounce my sadness, stress and of cause experiences of them. Really hard to find just a person

Some time feel like I’m weight down by all that I’m not mentioning the design that I’ve finish.

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A Story of..

I took this story from Aaron’s most resent blog that touched me.. I want to share it with you because I think this is worth sharing! Read on and I encourage you to take a moment. It took me few days to digest and I’m still digesting now. Come to think of your life. How things can turn out if you were to be like this guy.

“John is the kind of guy you love to hate. He is always in a good mood and always has something positive to say. When someone would ask him how he was doing, he would reply, "If I were any better, I would be twins!"

He was a natural motivator. If an employee was having a bad day, John was there telling the employee how to look on the positive side of the situation. Seeing this style really made me curious, so one day I went up and asked him, "I don't get it! You can't be a positive person all of the time. How do you do it?"

He replied, "Each morning I wake up and say to myself, you have two choices today. You can choose to be in a good mood or ... you can choose to be in a bad mood. I choose to be in a good mood. "Each time something bad happens, I can choose to be a victim.....or......I can choose to learn from it. I choose to learn from it. Every time someone comes to me complaining, I can choose to accept their complaining...... or... I can point out the positive side of life. I choose the positive side of life."

"Yeah, right, it's not that easy," I protested. "Yes, it is," he said. "Life is all about choices. When you cut away all the junk, every situation is a choice. You choose how you react to situations. You choose how people affect your mood. You choose to be in a good mood or bad mood. The bottom line: It's your choice how you live your life."

I reflected on what he said. Soon hereafter, I left the Tower Industry to start my own business. We lost touch, but I often thought about him when I made a choice about life instead of reacting to it. Several years later, I heard that he was involved in a serious accident, falling some 60 feet from a communications tower. After 18 hours of surgery and weeks of intensive care, he was released from the hospital with rods placed in his back. I saw him about six months after the accident. When I asked him how he was, he replied, “If I were any better, I'd be twins Want to see my scars?" I declined to see his wounds, but I did ask him what had gone through his mind as the accident took place.

"The first thing that went through my mind was the well-being of my soon-to-be born daughter," he replied. "Then, as I lay on the ground, I remembered that I had two choices: I could choose to live..... or...I could choose to die. I chose to live."

"Weren't you scared? Did you lose consciousness?" I asked. He continued, "..The paramedics were great. They kept telling me I was going to be fine. But when they wheeled me into the ER and I saw the Expressions on the faces of the doctors and nurses, I got really scared. In their eyes, I read 'he's a dead man'. I knew I needed to take action."

"What did you do?" I asked. "Well, there was a big burly nurse shouting questions at me," said John." She asked if I was allergic to anything. “Yes, I replied." The doctors and nurses stopped working as they waited for my reply. I took a deep breath and yelled, 'Gravity’. “Over their laughter, I told them, "I am choosing to live. Operate on me as if I am alive, not dead."

He lived, thanks to the skill of his doctors, but also because of his amazing attitude........I learned from him that every day we have the choice to live fully. Attitude, after all, is everything. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." After all today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday. Think Positive & Live.”

Now, this story really touches me when I read it the first time around. I almost broke into tears as I ponder more on this story. As I ponder further I’ve come to realise where is God in the whole picture?

I don’t know if this story is real or not, but I know that it is very hard for a man (and women) to be like so in the story. As for me, I can say that there must be a focus in life. The focus for us human on earth, a creature created in God’s own image is God and God alone. If a non Christian can be positive of life, what more we as Christian can offer in the salvation in Christ that we have?

I’m being very dangerous here in making this statement as such. As a Christian, as we go through the trouble of life. We acknowledge the trouble we face, be it sad, heart broken, financial problem and etc. We acknowledge it as we allow God to take charge of the situation that we are in.

Acknowledgement is a BIG word. So don’t take it lightly in this context. It takes perseverance and lot more than what we can take. Even to the stage where we need to let go of our problems.

Acknowledgement of your problem to Christ is not escapism.

8 in every way having been troubled, but not having been hemmed in; having been perplexed, but not utterly at a loss; having been persecuted, but not having been forsaken; 9 having been thrown down, but not having been destroyed;

2 Corinthians 4:7-12