After finishing 3 out of my 4 exam paper today… I was really worried that I won’t be able to pass the paper (Math.) I do have problem doing maths because I never seems to get the right answer (either I key in the wrong value into my calculator / I miss read the value or others…). I also had the same worries as I finish my material science and mechanic for the pass week…

I really have difficulty in doing those papers and I wander if I could even get ¼ of the whole mark they offer!!! (Well it is really this bad!!)… As I was biking with my friend back to my room… I told my friend my problem that I had. Then he answered me with this:

“Why worry, I see a lot of student here never sleep before exam. Why? Because they want to get an A. What for… The different of salary for a graduate with 1^st class honours and those who didn’t is just around rm300-400… And not ALL who get 1^st class could get a job… We are asked to get A when we were in school, so to get a place in university or colleges…”

The moment after that, this question strike me “What’s the real reason for Living??” Then I see my past start to pass me by in my thought…. (This is how it looks like as I sum it in a flow chart):

For me as a little boy I have no choice but to follow our parents. Thus future should be good… But what is we the choice??? The worst think is that every one will die…

Than I really feel what the meaning of living?? Why am I here in the 1^st place?? (This is the 1^st time I have such a deep thought about LIFE) I also understood that why a purpose in life is needed and why is it important!!!

But thanks to Jesus I know my life do not end when I die… serious… After so long being a Christian… I even read the book “the purpose driven life” then I don’t understand the real meaning of ‘purpose’!!

Ahhhhhhhhhh!!! I called Bernard to day and I found out that... I'm going to miss this year's HUGE camp!! The last HuGE Camp I went was the 1 in Penang where PlanetShakers came to Malaysia.. After missing last years HUGE i told my self that I'm not going to miss another HUGE!! But it turn out that I'll miss this year as well due to the overlaping with my Army trainning camp, that is about 2weeks!! From the 24th Nov. to the 15th Dec. On the 15th is the final day of both camp!! I've never miss a single HUGE Camp since the 1st 1 that is in Melacca in 2000 (camp baju is the green 1) (same with this year, but at Air Keruh I think..) until last year's 1...

The aim for me to go to this camp is:

1. Dont forget, is to seek God. (Get the fire!!) Motivation. The topic they have there for each session is very intresting!! Last time i use to go for the BGR Talk... Kind of fun( get to see some pretty girl AND ALSO GAIN KNOWLEDGE la)... Then going with kav. , fook sim and more...

2. To catch up with old buddies since I'm been gone to the North for some 2 years now!! (sad)

3. To know know the youth (not that i'm old!!) from my church (most of the church youth and teens go for this camp) as there is always new faces that have been promoted from PowerKids to Teens and from RCKL Teen to RCKL Youth... Also those fella that bring friends along with them!!

4. Also since I'm a guy... So guys you know what I mean la... (this is just sampingan) (it is also said in the Bible that if you Lust with your heart, you are committing adultery)(got you there!! haha..) what i ment was, know other teens and youth from other church. Guy or Girl they are the same... haha... Get new ideas from them about their church activitys!!

**** Those who get to go I say enjoy it and let God move... Ask him to work in you... you can go to all kinds of camp and conferences and after few weeks you are back to your OLD self... Is not about the music and the band or speaker but God... Talking about GOD is a serious thing... Blessing from god is the FUN for forever!!! So ASK!
"For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened." matthew 7:8

**** Another thing is that don't sleep late cause the next morning buring service... you will see every ones head looking down and eyes close!!! haha...

GTG got exam in 6more hours which me luck!!!

Haha I saw this is kind of funny and i hope you all will have a good laugh... Anyway the last time i REALLY watch Power Rangers was i think i was in standerd 4.... wooo it has been long... I was in to the Power Ranger movie where White Ranger (or green ranger??) save the day... haha...

My 2nd digi camera is going to me the Nikon D50!! Yes I'm going pro... At least I'm trying to be one or to get the "Pro Feel"... I'm planing to get it in the mid of next year as I guess i could buy the camera, a batter lens than provided and an external flash the total cost for all this at this time would be around 4K... If i were to buy the camera it self... it would be around 2.5K now... Muhahaha.... I'm not "Kaya" but one who know what I want and learn to store up my money to get what i want (I hope I'm that what i say i would).... haha.. If i some how one day ask you to borrow me some money... Please dont say no ok?? hahah... In a mist of Exam I'm still able to think of what i want haha...

p/s: ya hope you would pray for me as my exam starts on the 8th nov and end on the 18th nov... and also my army trainning ya... thanks!!

As i finish logging this blog... I'm just 5% of my revision and i have less than 3 days to finish it before the 1st exam!!! "What was i doing all this while" you may ask.... Well.. watching movies and dramas (thanks got I'm not into anime)... Thanks to the ting call the "Intranet/network" I'm able to download all kinds of stuff!! latest movie, drama, anime(for you all naruto fans.. the latest episode is i think 105++ i think .. I'm not a fan.. DAH..), series, programmes and much more!! (sorry no PORN... may be got but you need to be smart to find it la.. HEHE..) Thanks to this "Network" I'm able to finish my study time with watching all this type of dramas... and all my harddisk are full.... if I were to get a 160Gb hardisk... i dont think it will be enough... some of the screenshort are as below...

Anyway I'll be comming back to KL early of DEC. after my RUTO tranning... 1 week at USM main campus and another is at the Deep Jungle of Kulim (if you dontknow where is it.. its in Kedah).. I hope I'll be able to "tahan"....

Ya i hope it's not too late to Wish HAPPY DIPA/RAYA or RAYA/DIPA?? well ether way to cut the story short.. to those... you know who you are... Well hape you enjoy you holidays la...

this is the view of my desktop.... well... my comp. is running kind of slow now... dontknow why may due to the overload of programme running....

Smallville... i was not into it at first... but after i downloaded a episode of it... i got stick to it!!! well now i got the whole season4 burn on my CD-Rs... who want to watch can come and ask me... now i'm waitting for the 6th epi. of season 5 ... the latest 1.... haha.. just that is hari raya... every one go home... meaning that their comp. is off... mean that i cant download!!! alamak!!! haha

Revolving the doors of vengeance is the latest Hong Kong Drama... Its a long welllllll... i give this seris a 5 out of 5... i have the whole 30 episodes.... it took me 3 days to watch all of it while my friend took 2 days... just to remind you that my exam is next week... on the 8th of oct 05.... hahaha!!! please pray for me...

the "final days" before the 1 semester exam!!!

shine.... the sun...

a view from the the "tasik"

an afternoon view in my uni college

This is just in... I just took a picture of my college's backyard... Look really "pretty" at the sun begain its climb at 0645.... 

A trip to Penang last week..... this picture was taken no the farry goingback to mainland... the weather was a bit wet then.... did not buy anything but just go look-look around.... 

This is what We do during waiting!! 

Hello.. I'm Back ya... This is the picture taken from the back of an army 3Tan Lorry at Penang Bridge!! 

Hey I got both offer to go to Universiti Teknologi Petronas on ICT or Universiti Sains Malaysia on Civil Eng. Almost all my best friend been offer to study around KL. I really don’t feel like leaving my family behind… Of cause not forgetting my Church friends that are very supportive in a way… I really learn a lot from them… Thanks God for both offer I got and a thinks to those who prayed for me… Really I was looking forward to UTP at 1^st but now. I really don’t know which to pick?

Penang, so far, expensive foods, jam every where, very small Island…. But USM have its own astronomy club that I wanted to joint since my college in KMK after they come here to give us a view of the vast sky above us… plus one can get electrical stuff for a cheaper price… of cause one can find a church there and I hope to joint the CF there if I have made up my mine, I heard that is very active. Another thing is that the life there is ‘fun’ (I think)…

Compare to Perak (UTP), is located a small town of Tronoh. Good if you don’t know where that is, this also shows that it’s a peaceful place out of the buzz of city life... But you won’t find any cinema there to just watch a movie with your friends... The food there is cheap since it’s in a small town; I think one will be able to concentrate on studies well there... one more thing is that is hard to find Christian friends over there… A church is out of the question… It is also close to KL, then I would be able to come back every weekend (with my dirty shirt back home to wash ha-ha…..).

Please give me comments to help me choose…. Thanks..

¹⁰ Pride only breeds quarrels,
but wisdom is found in those who take advice.

Proverbs 13 : 10

³ Commit to the LORD whatever you do,
and your plans will succeed.

Proverbs 16 : 3

For the last 3 days I went to UNIVERSITI TEKNOLOGI PETRONAS, Tronoh Perak for its EduCamp ‘05 for other qualification as I’ve just graduated from the government’s Matriculation programme last April. Well… I met some interesting people there… 1 of them from holds a diploma in computer stuff and has been working for INTEL (those fellows who make the processor in the computer that we most use) that is in Penang for the past year. I’ve been my dream to work BIG computer corporation like INTEL. But who knows what I’m going to do next…

Ya about this EduCamp, it is a 3 day (14^th – 16^th June 2005) programme to evaluate ones potential on their creativity and innovative and also team work ability (e.g. leadership) since they want to produce a work force that is “all-Rounder”. The 1^st thing I notice when I reach there is NOT GIRLS (ok may be a bit la…) but the structure of the buildings there. They look futuristic but the hostel that I ‘m staying there sucks!! Look like one of the LOCK-UPs in some police station!! But other than that… every things look “Good to the Eye”…

On the 1^st day we are all been divided into smaller groups called “ECP” (also call “micro Lad”) of because I don’t know what that means… Please tell me if you have any idea. In those group we are ask to divide into smaller group. From there we are asked to give the group a name, motto, logo and some ad. to attract other people to joint the group.

On the 2^nd day, we took the so call IQ test (Critical Reasoning Test) and on the afternoon we been given career talks so to understand more of the programmes that we are going to take.

On the last day, we are been assess by 2 panel by group and individual some thing like interview (Potential J Assessment). Well I really hope I can get the offer to study there…

today is also my 1^st time driving home from Perak back to KL!! Yes!! Below are some pictures that I took over there... Have you BERNARD c. or any other?? hahha!!

Man meets nature!! 

One of the view of the lecture hall as i went for one of the career talk 

this is the map of the whole structure... there are still some parts that are not comple 

Some of the Lab there 

The roof of the walkway around of the structure are link togather to form a "star" like shape 

there is a park in the middle of the "star like" structure 

building that are futuristic... 

The diffrent between the university of petronas (left) and matriculation (right)Room... 

Are they Gay or what?? 

Wow.... what r they doing? 

Yes... is that time again... WOrSHiP...!! 

Ya.. Ya.. Ya.. eat lah.... after youth gathering... today night.. 

Want some MAMEE or some chicken stuff?? 

It's a very HOT week it has been.... Even my fellow green friends can take the sun no more... hahah!!! 

HTN '05 really have change all of our life... The way we look at the world around... Plus see what God have for us... Also to know Him... For me... I really got to know some of the youth more after 1 year alway from church... Spending more time with them really help me understand them (youth) more... What they want and don't want.. Their problems... After 3 days of getting up early as 6.15am.. From the 2nd to the 4th of June '05 really have me put my faith to the test.... haha... below are 30 pictures some of the picture i took from the HTN conference..