最珍贵的角落 Artist: 赞美之泉

谢谢你灿烂笑容，照亮我的天空

谢谢你分享心情，把我放在你心中

夜里有时为寒冷，你我生根同暖土

友情是最亮的星，我的生命从此美丽

当你被花朵包围尽情欢欣

我带春风使你舞其中

当你正走在坎坷路，我会伴你在左右

一起向蓝天欢呼，向白云招手

我们要一起笑一起哭

千万人中有个人懂我

你有最珍贵的角落

Thank you for everything!! happy new year to everyone!!

Happy Birthday (28th Dec) to you my brother, since i know you, you have took the time to helped me in my walk in life. A guidance that help me to see the way ahead of me as i walk. I've up;load pictures for you sempena your birthday!! Click here!!

Here is a gift form me when i go to Penang for my time out and found this car number plate which sounds like you!!

Who says lightning never strike twice? Let me tell you it just did this afternoon..

It’s like a new Volcano just erupts on land and has cause massive casualties (this is what the army will call collateral damage)

Hate these things that is happening and I pray only for his mercy to flow unconditionally on my ever wondering and sinful heart.

Again and again I’m been bombarded by words that was so bitter and sharp that really cut my heart into peaces. Again and again I’m been accuse of not saying and doing the right thing but infect what I done was right. For few weeks now I’m experiencing such. I don’t know how much I can take it and today is the day where I was on my limit and I expressed out in anger and in frustration. This leaves some form of dissatisfaction in some. I’m sorry I say..

No one seems to understand what I’ve been through to end up as such. Can’t they just wait for a moment and ask why? Why they just can’t see through? Why would I act as such instate of saying bad things about me? Why judge me with not looking at what are the factors that involve? But I can only cry out and I pray that you oh Lord will continue to soften my heart and make me into the person that you want me to be.

Thanks to you sis!! Who has helped me and help me express by letting me share and hear my problems which few will listen and care about. I’m sure you are an angle who sends by Him who created all living creature. May His glory shine to you and the people around you.

In the past holiday I’ve learn things about life. life is so finite but some time I was carried away by it till I forget the purpose of life which God has gave us. I also found out that the little things that I do in life can be part of something great in God’s kingdom but the sad part is that some time I choose to deviate from it and follow my own ways!!

I’m still learning now to follow his ways and still bit by bit letting go of my old habits and embrace what is righteous in God’s eye. He die for us on the cross 2000 years ago for our past sins and the sins that we are going to do!!

Please teach me your ways and may your spirit lead me and guide me to change me into the person that you want me to be.

“To be save cost us nothing,

To be His disciple cost us every thing”

It’s worth the fight and worth to follow as we are following the one who made us and who is much higher than I am.

A really good movie for those who like film that base on facts and action!

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This thought has been lingering in my head since after the LifeGame.. Till now it is still ringing..

As I finish the finals for the previous semester and usher into the semester break, suddenly time was not the issue. Before the exams, I occupied my time by completing my assignments, rushing to complete lab report to meet the due date, studying for test and pop quiz, preparing for CF and Palapes activities, spending time with friends, being a van driver and so much more. Time seems to be pack and 24 hours wasn’t enough. Then suddenly when it comes to the end of the semester, all this things seems to just stop.

What is the purpose of living then? Like those who are working, it is the same routine everyday le…

As I went through LifeGame camp recently, I realise that I the main reason of looking to God is because of my studies. That shouldn’t be the way! I’m learning to trust in Him and obey Him in every way I live, the things that I do, say, hear and see.

This is the best Love story I’ve ever watch!! Serious…. I’m not a big fan of watching romantic stores but I stumble into this when I was looking for movies to download after the exams and just because the name is “Stardust” which sound so Star Trek I download it and finally watch it!! It’s a must watch movie!!

Click here for more info

It’s that time of the year again! Shopping time is here. This time, I’m really struggling on making a decision on buying a additional lens for my camera! For those who have follow my photo gallery on my multiply site, yes you have guess it right! It’s the Canon EF-S 10-22mm f/3.5-4.5 USM.

But with a price of RM 1800 just for a used lens!! How much more for a bran new lens? Aiyahhh~~ now really falling into the temptation of buying. Oh God please help me I pray!! Ah~~~

p/s where is Santa when I need him!! I’ve been a good boy le~~

POD(Payable On Death) is a Christian ban which i got hook onto lately... Listen to the lyric which have deep meaning and full of message!!

God has been good and He has reminded me constantly of the need to follow him and most of all the 2^nd coming of Jesus Christ to this world. Life is short and as we walk the walk of life, we tend to loos focus on the life. The organiser manage to induce a almost real life living condition and I can say it was God’s blessing and grace that I got to experience although it might be just a game.

In the game, I was sweep away by the rush of fulfilling the need of life. I drift out of line as not seeking God and was seeking every possible way to get the best out of life. be it my privilege and the amount earn in life.

This game is base on the verse from the book of Matthew 16:24-28(NLT) of the Bible.

“24 Then Jesus said to his disciples, “If any of you wants to be my follower, you must turn from your selfish ways, take up your cross, and follow me. 25 If you try to hang on to your life, you will lose it. But if you give up your life for my sake, you will save it. 26 And what do you benefit if you gain the whole world but lose your own soul? Is anything worth more than your soul? 27 For the Son of Man will come with his angels in the glory of his Father and will judge all people according to their deeds. 28 And I tell you the truth, some standing here right now will not die before they see the Son of Man coming in his Kingdom.”

On the 1^st day Pastor John spoke of Life, Life as a race that we all are running.

“ 1 Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a huge crowd of witnesses to the life of faith, let us strip off every weight that slows us down, especially the sin that so easily trips us up. And let us run with endurance the race God has set before us. 2 We do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects our faith. Because of the joy awaiting him, he endured the cross, disregarding its shame. Now he is seated in the place of honor beside God’s throne.”

Hebrews 12:1-2(NLT)

We are all winner in this race if only we put aside our selfish desires, shoulder our cross and follow him. Most of the time, we tend to be carried away by the things of this world. Like me, I was carried away in the game with the things that needed to fulfil my life needs such as food, clothing and the place to stay. Even some time, in the game I tend to go for things that are more that I ever wanted. The temptation of getting reach and the power of owning everything on your figure tips some time capture me. In the bible it says

“15 We all come to the end of our lives as naked and empty-handed as on the day we were born. We can’t take our riches with us.”

Ecclesiastes 5:15(NLT)

The fact that when we leave this world (by this I mean going haven or hell) and moving on and leaving every achievement behind and carried nothing is very real!!

These are some of the things that I learn from this Life Impact Camp. I’ll constantly post some of the things that I’ve lean in the later entry of my blog as I don’t want this entry to be too long.

This holiday, I manage to get back home for the weekend just in time to visit my new church building. I can tell you, I was shocked as I entered the new building because I saw it was COOL!!

I manage to meet up with some of the people, friends and youth of the church that I grew up as a youth (I only understand church life when I was in form 3 and start to join the ever since). i believe God’s blessing is on the church and on the leaders of the church.

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Harro every body!! Yahhoooo!! I’m back from my Palapes camp and now attending another camp. Wanted to blog about my Palapes camp but looks like I’ve to put that to a later date as I’m occupied now with the Life Game camp.

Started off the game with registration around ½ hour late. The objective of this camp so far as I reflect tonight is not that clear to me yes as it is just the 1^st day. total of 230 participants attending this camp.

The day started off “challenging” to me as I need to face different kind of people with different kind of attitude. Getting upset and angry is to different thing that I got to learn today as I learn to deal with the organiser.

Cant blog more as I’m tired now.. hahha….

The group from USM KKJ, CMC Parid Buntar and Friends. :)

Setting off I would like to call this blog entry. So today later 715am, I’ll be off to my Palapes training program starting today till the 3^rd of December 2007. If I’m lucky, I’ll get to blog one or two more entry before I get into the jungle on the 25^th November till the 1^st December. Well first things first. Yesterday I made my way back to campus by bus. And it took me RM53.60 to Parid Buntar, just because I went into the wrong bus. The feeling of going back to campus has already weight me down as all of my other friends are enjoying their holidays being relax, recharge and of cause become lazy. Now here I’m am joining activities as Palapes which I’ve to sacrifice almost my whole holiday for it. I told some of my close friend that I’m really sad at such conditions. But thank God I’m able to snap out of this sadness and I also pray that with God’s given strength, I will continue on the things that I’m doing and not give up.

As the bus left KL, I really felt disconnected and so on. There were a lot of things that I planed to do this holidays such as meet up with friends, visit my new church building and most of all spend some time with my family members. Oh ya, forgot to mention that I was hoping to go to the bookshops such as MPH, Kinikunia or borders, buy a really good book and then sit at starbuks and coffeebeen to drink and read. And yet again time is limited… Hay~~

Another thing that I learned today is that is not easy to sew. It took me 3hours to sew both side of may name on the army uniform. With the needle poking here and there on my finger

Do continue to pray for me as I go for the Palapes training

I would like to recap what I’ve been through in this pass semester especially on my emotional point of view.

The starting of the semester for me was a rough one. Really rough one. Emotions were fluctuating just because I let it controlled by the situation and environment. As I’ve learn life are made up of choices that we make. These choices that we make will determine the outcome of the decision we make. But bare in mind the things that happen around us I believe has been approve by God, because every thing that we do and happen are done for the good of those who love them!!

Then I choose to go with my emotions. At a time you could see me talking aloud and the next you could see me sit at the side and being silent, switch off and cut off. Some time things can get lots worst with anger come into the picture. In other words I snap very easily. At these times I do constantly pray and cry under my pillow on my bed and express my carelessness on my actions I’ve done. I can’t cry aloud as my room mates are always in my room. I was blank and blur on what to do. Questions of life start pop-ing up on my head. Why, how, when and who and such bombard me day and night.

On September I was a turning point, I joined Time Out and then I saw my miss take and my carelessness. Of cause with the realisation, I need time to readjust and recalibrate what I’ve reflected and learn during Time Out. Committing all back to him. All that I’m I give back to him.

To this date I’m who I’m and thanks to the people around me and what he has provided. On the 18^th of September I experience what every guy experience and I thank God for the experience. Because I did not impact me much as god has assure me before that date. Now I’m happy and glade and of cause hoping that he will provide

Well I’m happy to be back home finally in KL. But I still miss Starbaks and Coffeebeen!?!?! Didn’t really get the chance to hang out there as time is limited here.

I came back here on Tuesday after a day trip to a small town name Tapah in Perak. Before I forget I would like to say thanks to Miss Janesse Chee for her help of taking her ride back to her house. According to her, before her family shifted to a real house, she was living on trees. Whoever own a sampan are consider to be rich!?!? Wawawa… I kind of like the place there as it’s a small town, lots of greens and most of all the peaceful. One thing for sure that Miss Chee though me in this trip was, you can actually walk around the whole town without needing transportation!! The sad part of this town is that, there is a population gap. A gap that put this town in risk of becoming a ghost town. There are too many old people here while their suns and daughter set off to big city such as Kuala Lumpur, Ipoh and Penang. The only thing that keeping this town running I think is Cameron Highlands. Tapah is at the foot hill of Cameron Highlands and one of the road lead there.

Tapah is a cool and wonderful place, then my trusty camera was on standy for me to take picture of that place… But I was not ready to do so.. Should I say “no balls” wawaw.. But I will snap!!

I reach the federal territory around 3pm. There were no jams thank God for that!! After reaching, took an LRT back home. Rest for awhile, by this I mean switching on the computer and enjoy the high speed internet back home.

Then it started to rain. Let me tell you, the thunder and lightning and thunder occur very much often compare to the place such as my campus. Really scary to hear and to see flashes here and there. Well back to the story, went back home and rest and went out again to KL Central to pass I/C to my friend in campus as he is leaving back home in Sarawak. As I took LRT during rush hour, I notice the authorities manage to control the crowds by having people line up and wait for their turn to hop on the packed train. I was stun that Malaysia are capable of learning and they learn really fast!! I guess, Malaysian are not so impolite after all!! Just that some time we need to learn to be such.. :)

Anyway as my time here in home, many things happen. Such as, my sister drove me back from LRT station. I’m so proud of her?!?! Wawawa… ok here comes the sad part, remember the Proton Waja with leather sitting, and with upgrade stereo sound system which is cool? It has been involve in an accident. The whole driver’s door have to be replaced and I’m very sad right now.

Ok!! This I think will be my last entry for the time that I’ll be at home. A lot has happen and with limited time (ok,ok.. all the time I was youtubing, friendstering and not forgetting slepping!!) wish more tome to be back home and be lazy.

Amen, thank God that I’ve finish all my exams paper for this semester. I’m now clouded with mix feelings, feeling of unsure, and uncertain in my life.

Some time I tend to wonder, life always brings worries upon worries. Is as this case, before the exam, one will then to be worry on what question will the lecture post during exam. Worries such as “I cant finish this chapter.. What if it come out I exam?” are not far away. After the exam has pass, worries of how will my result will turn out to be? I’ve few friends that has graduate from university, as soon as they graduate. They worry about their job. After getting a job, worries at the working place due to work pressure.

Do you guys getting what I’m saying here? As the rock at the sea side, those rocks are constantly being hit with wave upon wave. Their no stopping the waves at sea. It’s a continuous process. Bit by bit, little by little, but surely this rocks that is constantly hit by this wave will be shaped. This in geological term is called corrosion or weathered rocks. In the same way, as we look at our life. The way we think and the way we act are sometime been shaped by this constant wave of worries.

I’m still learning to deal with the waves of worry in life. Not running away from it because this is not what Christ has tough is how to live. At most occasion this worries of mind has resulted in anger. With anger in the place there is no self-control. You can believe me; I can do a lot of bad things when I’m angry. Emotion of mind will then fluctuate up and down. This will affect the people around us!

Remember the time in the bible where Jesus told the wave and the wave and wind to stop (matt8:26). He was cool with it. Not worrying because he has seen the big picture. Jesus was not bother about it because he knows that God is always with him. Knowing that He is God’s only son. Now that we know that we are all sons and daughter still most of the time I fail to realise that the fact is God will take care of us. Because Jesus himself said this to us in the bible:

^“30Therefore if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will He not much rather clothe you, little-faiths? ³¹ Therefore do not be anxious, saying, what shall we eat? Or, what shall we drink? Or, with what shall we be clothed? ³² For the nations seek after all these things. For your heavenly Father knows that you have need of all these things.”

Matthew 6:30-32

And no just looking what we want to see. In the following passage Jesus also said:

^“33But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness; and all these things shall be added to you.”

Matthew 6:33

I’m still learning. So my God, I need to be with you. Because all that I’m, is from you. Please make me into the person that you want me to be a person that will glorify your name as I live up my life that you have freely give to me. Here I ask you for your guidance and your wisdom to fall on me so that I can carry myself well before you. Lord I also pray that you will continue to assure me that you are with me always. I want to be near to you. Thank you Lord.

Amen!

Why

Why

Why…?

Miss one simple question for design exam just now. One 12marks question could make a difference in my result. Who knows? Stress now. To strive for the upcoming 4 unit paper

This song is one of my old time best song! This song is an OST from the picture The Prince of Egypt. I watched this show when I was in the 2006 Camp cam. Well, if not mistaken, I cried at one part of the movie. I watch the movie alone le. Hahhaa… Really is a nice song and really learn it by heart!

Thus I’ve been singing this song very often now days!!

When You Believe

Whitney Houston and Mariah Carey

Verse 1:
Many nights we've prayed With no proof anyone could hear In our hearts a hopeful song We barely understood Now we are not afraid Although we know there's much to fear We were moving mountains Long before we knew we could

Chorus:
There can be miracles When you believe Though hope is frail It's hard to kill Who knows what miracles You can achieve When you believe Somehow you will, (Now you will (3rd Chorus)) You will when you believe

Verse 2:
In this time of fear When prayer so often proves in vain Hope seemed like the summer birds Too swiftly flown away Yet now I'm standing here My heart's so full, I can't explain Seeking faith and speaking words I never thought I'd say

Chorus
So in times when all your hope is gone And you go through life afraid In your heart there lies a hopeful song That is there to guide the way And all the hurt and all the pain You soon will learn was not in vain For all your prayers, they will be heard They'll come to pass through faith

I don’t know what to say of this pass week. I’m experiencing headache since the 2^nd week of study week. As I took my first paper which is EAG345 soil mechanics, I don’t know what to say of it. As I took the 2^nd paper EUP301 Engineering management, I don’t know what to say of it. as I took my 3^rd paper that is today EAA384, still I’ve noting to say. I which to score to the max for this subjects.

All the subject taken are considering easy and one will have a high chance of scoring and to make up for the killer subject as Design, Waste water and Highway, all charring fair amount of unit with them.

For my fellow readers, I’ve been a 2 time “probation” student meaning that I’ve score less than 2.0 PNG. I don’t want to experience it again. I’m now 11 units behind my fellow friends. The hope of studying master is far as my result doesn’t meet the minimum requirement of taking master.

I’m speechless now and can’t really say anything.

Lord, You are in control. As a song goes, “You are God along in the good times and bad. You are on the throne you are god alone” as now I surrender my up coming paper into your hands. Not leaving you behind. I invite you to carry me, mould me and shape me into what you want me to be. Lord, make me a blessing to the people around me. Not because I want a return form them, but because you have bless me in full as your children. And you have called me and loved me 1^st. because you have send me into this world not to be of this world but you have choose me to bring hope, your glory and your eternal wave of mercy into this screw up world. Some time Lord, I might fall to the ways of the world. But I know you are forgiving. Lord, I pray you will take me through this temptation of the world with you will and your power. Lord, teach me your ways and guide me. If you were to take me off, what am I to learn of you? But you know the best for me. Thanks for taking me as who I’m and what I’m Lord.

Amen..

“Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope.”

(Romans 5:3-4)

Not feeling well till now. Don’t know what to do of it. I don’t call this suffering bit more of a challenge. But in all things God still love those who He loves. Remember he loves us 1^st? wawaw….

The headache that I’m experiencing may cause me to make unreasonable decisions, for some time snap me off. It is so not like me. I’m a person who like to talk and make the environment around me to light up. But looks like this headache is pulling me down.

Anyway, I’ll try my best in doing my exam and to carry myself well. Because knowing God is there for me and you always!! Rejoice!!

Amen!!

Took this from someone’s blog so hope you enjoy.. I'm a civil Eng to be.. so i've no say on this.. wawaw.. :)

Human Relationships are just like Chemical Reactions

To be more precise, a Reversible Chemical Reaction

Which will achieve its Equilibrium

A state where the rate of the forward reaction is similar with that of the backward reaction

Think about it...

A Chemical Reaction in Equilibrium

Is having its

Reactants breaking the chemical bonding between them forming products

And the

Products forming chemical bonding among themselves reforming the reactants

Continuously and simultaneously

Human Relationship in Equilibrium

Let A, B, C represent three different individuals respectively

In a manipulated condition

When A is very close with B, B is having ordinary friendship with C

When A and B are getting further apart, B and C becomes closer

When B and C become intimate, A and B have become so far apart (in terms of their friendship) that they don’t even know what’s going on each other recently

This phenomenon happen at the same time without the realization of A, B, and C

The process keep the relationship between them (the friendship or human relationship of B, especially and more obviously) in balance or in Equilibrium

* The Human Relationship or Man Relationship here refers to Friendship, Love, Family Relationship etc.

Try to compare both the Chemical Reaction and Man Relationship

Do u see the similarity in them that I mean?

Do u notice this in your daily life?

I’m on Paracetamol (panadol la) for a week now. With the growing frequent of headaches, have me no choice to do so. Today is my 1^st paper; well I did not that good. But praise the Lord I’m still able to take the exam. During the 3hourse paper feeling of throwing out and bursting into loud shout because of my pain!!

Came back from exam with the terrible headache! After that, went to church to have EUP (engineering management) group discussion before the exam this wed afternoon. Then I asked Derrick to drive, was disorientated and can’t make sound judgement then.

But thank God it soon ends! And I am now well again. Don’t dare to say what will I feel after I wake up tomorrow…

In Your freedom

Hillsong Savoir King

Verse 1

I search for You God of strength
I bow to You in my brokenness
And no other King could have so humbly come
To save my soul and heal my heart

I have nothing more than all You offer me
There is nothing else that's of worth to me

Chorus
And I love You Lord
You rescued me
You are all that I want
You're all that I need

Verse 2
I pray to You God of peace
I rest in You my cares released
I have nothing more than all You offer me
There is nothing else that's of worth to me

Bridge
In Your freedom I will live
In Your freedom I will live
I offer devotion, I offer devotion

“May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, O LORD, my Rock and my Redeemer.” (Psalm 19:14)

Thank you Lord for the things in life that you have gave me. I pray that you will wash me as white as the snow. I’m really sorry for the things in life that I’ve done things that sinful and bring shame to your name. Let not this doing take me always from your grace. Oh Lord….

Lord I surrender all my unwell to you. All my pain, confusion, stress in short my afflictions to you. With your grace and your mighty hand, I always believe you have great plans for me. So as I continue on my studies Lord, please guide me. Because in you there is hope and with hope I will find faith and in faith I know that you have loved me since the starts of days.

Take me in your present and make me into the person that you want me to be. Take all that I’m to worship you. Let your light shine so the world may see Jesus Christ is Lord.

Thanks to my dear Big sis, she gave me this verse as an encouragement!!

¹¹ For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Jeremiah 29:11

Amen!

Head pain

Saturation mind

Stressed

Worry

Consumed

You Are 45% Selfish

You are quite balanced. You are able to compromise when it's in the best interests of those involved. But you're no pushover. If something is important to you, you'll get it!

How Selfish Are You?

¹ A Psalm or Song for the sabbath day. It is good to give thanks to Jehovah, and to sing praises to Your name, O Most High; ² to show forth Your loving-kindness in the morning, and Your faithfulness every night;

Psalm 92:1-2

Well today I enjoyed my own time cycling out to ryas to have my dinner. The day was fun and nice. After all I’m back from worship practice for this Sunday.

I’m doing so cause I found myself in a state where I don’t know if I’m moody or emo. I’m under the cloud today. May be because of the sleep I had. Too much of it I guess…

As I sit alone in the table in ryas. I can see happy faces all around me. Laughter and joy always fills the place. I enjoy looking at people there. Some more is Friday night, so one can see the place will never be empty.. One group go the and another group come and take their place..

I went out 1130pm and came back to campus around 1215am.. Kind of enjoying the time alone. Hahahh… as I cycle and as I sit there alone my heart seek God and look to Him always!!

Amen!!

As my big day coming, I’m planning to run always to a quiet place where I can celebrate with few friends of this occasion in Penang. It’s a time of celebration, time out, time with God and most of all a time to reflect and to cry over things in the pass so to let go. Time to do the things I like, taking pictures hhahah… and to observe the environment. Can’t wait for the big day.

As now I’m thinking of things in my life, I just don’t know what I’ll get and what I’ll be in the future.

There is some thing that I need to look onto God. Inviting him in to dine with me. To let him examine my life as a living creature created for me and to worship him.

“Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart.”

(Psalm 37:4)

Congratulations to FES and the members as they have set up their new web page. The new look some say like redio station and some say… hahha… anyway I also wanna congratulate my POPO for starting this from scratch. Not even one template was used… hahahha… congratulation!! link are FES

Did You Know

Artist: Hillsong kids album: Jesus my Super hero

Verse 1
Did You know that someone out to give
You lives in me that other people do
Did You know He die on the cross
Did You know His name is Jesus

Chorus:
I want thank You that everything You've done
You love me and gave Your only Son
To die on the cross for my sin
To die on the cross for my sin

Verse 2:
Did You know He rose from the dead
Is risen now He will be back again
Did You know He's loving You today
Did You know He's the only way