Mixed Bags..

Amen, thank God that I’ve finish all my exams paper for this semester. I’m now clouded with mix feelings, feeling of unsure, and uncertain in my life.

Some time I tend to wonder, life always brings worries upon worries. Is as this case, before the exam, one will then to be worry on what question will the lecture post during exam. Worries such as “I cant finish this chapter.. What if it come out I exam?” are not far away. After the exam has pass, worries of how will my result will turn out to be? I’ve few friends that has graduate from university, as soon as they graduate. They worry about their job. After getting a job, worries at the working place due to work pressure.

Do you guys getting what I’m saying here? As the rock at the sea side, those rocks are constantly being hit with wave upon wave. Their no stopping the waves at sea. It’s a continuous process. Bit by bit, little by little, but surely this rocks that is constantly hit by this wave will be shaped. This in geological term is called corrosion or weathered rocks. In the same way, as we look at our life. The way we think and the way we act are sometime been shaped by this constant wave of worries.

I’m still learning to deal with the waves of worry in life. Not running away from it because this is not what Christ has tough is how to live. At most occasion this worries of mind has resulted in anger. With anger in the place there is no self-control. You can believe me; I can do a lot of bad things when I’m angry. Emotion of mind will then fluctuate up and down. This will affect the people around us!

Remember the time in the bible where Jesus told the wave and the wave and wind to stop (matt8:26). He was cool with it. Not worrying because he has seen the big picture. Jesus was not bother about it because he knows that God is always with him. Knowing that He is God’s only son. Now that we know that we are all sons and daughter still most of the time I fail to realise that the fact is God will take care of us. Because Jesus himself said this to us in the bible:

^“30Therefore if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will He not much rather clothe you, little-faiths? ³¹ Therefore do not be anxious, saying, what shall we eat? Or, what shall we drink? Or, with what shall we be clothed? ³² For the nations seek after all these things. For your heavenly Father knows that you have need of all these things.”

Matthew 6:30-32

And no just looking what we want to see. In the following passage Jesus also said:

^“33But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness; and all these things shall be added to you.”

Matthew 6:33

I’m still learning. So my God, I need to be with you. Because all that I’m, is from you. Please make me into the person that you want me to be a person that will glorify your name as I live up my life that you have freely give to me. Here I ask you for your guidance and your wisdom to fall on me so that I can carry myself well before you. Lord I also pray that you will continue to assure me that you are with me always. I want to be near to you. Thank you Lord.

Amen!