I hate holidays. Why? Because since the Chinese new year holidays has ended but the holiday mode in me has not end. I came back ever more laze than I was before. I was supposed to come back to campus on the 21 Feb. but end up coming back 2 days after that. I thought I will start study, but I end up watching series like Heroes and Prison Break!! Man~~~

People doing Lab work

I'm the lazy one who become "penumpang" during Lab

When I was a child, my father always bring me and by siblings to the cinema to watch movie. One of the all times favourite for me is The Lion King! Well I like the 1^st one more than the others. For those who is younger you might not feel as I felt about the movie. A good show has a good soundtrack, so after many search and waiting, I found it the original Score!! A must listen… Bring back old memories.

This guy is very cool!!! just watch it to see it....

I’ve got my new phone from Iggi, I got it for RM500. Well, I consider it to be a good buy as I’m not stable in my financial status. The reason I bought this phone is because my old N-GAGE QD suffer for from some dust defect. I was hard to type msgs. The 2^nd reason is because it is consider to good phone compare to the newer model because it small and don’t have much moving parts. Ya now I can take more picture and blog with picture as there are no need to carry my big Canon G3 camera around. The quality compare to Yan’s K750i (I think) is far way behind. But I’m happy on what the phone gives me now. Wawawaw….

One thing I did not expect when I bought this phone was that I have to change my hand from 2hand on the old phone, into one hand on the 6630. But it is kind of exciting to carry around a camera phone.

The 6630 and my old N-Gage QD

Image quality of my new old 6630

Image quality of my G3

i told you that i was into Youtube.com for the pass week looking for funny jokes... well i end up finding one here. just to share it with you guys.

Opening quote: "A great civilization is not conquered from without until it has destroyed itself from within." — W. Durant

Apocalypto is a movie that must be watch by every one!! It is not out in Malaysia but it can be downloaded online. Man... The action in this show speaks louder that word!! Well, this show is kind of like the passion of Christ where the entire show is not spoken in English… so for me, I had to look at the subs the whole time. Max Ting msg me when i was watching this show.

The show is all about humanity and its nature, family and friendship, myths and facts, human past. It’s a Mel Gibson’s movie.

My family made the way to Johor today to visit and to celebrate Chinese New Year. It took us almost 6hours to reach Johor, Skudai area. We were stuck on the highway for 3hours, from Sungai Besi to Seremban. We saw 4 accidents happen along the way, thanks god for protecting us along the way.

During new year for the Chinese, it’s a season of prosperity. A time where everyone which to get money and fill their bank account. During a stop on the highway, my father saw basket robins their. So without thinking and taking our advice, he storm into the shop to get some ice-cream. With the irresistible ice-cream, me and my brother call some of it too. From the beginning me and my brother knew that the price tag was going to be a disaster. Well it turn out that our forecast was right!!

It cost us RM44 plus!! Man, it was really expensive treat!It is of very expansive compare to the uncle selling ice-cream at the park which it is very Money was flowing out before it could come in on Chinese new year!!

I would like to wish every one a happy new year ya!! “fat-fat” always!! And God Bless!!

I thought the internet was getting boring as I thought I have been to most of website like lowyat.net, blogger.com, flickr.com, yahoo, hotmail.com, friendster.com and more. But the day before I came back home to KL, Derrick was looking over youtube.com as I went to visit him. He introduce me youtube grabber where one can download the video from youtube and save in your computer. Man that night I was sleepless.

Downloading videos and more videos from the site! This addiction consumed me causing me to sleep at 5am that night. Even now I’m at home with the faster internet connection; I slept at 2am yesterday that is because I have to go pick up my sister from Cerating the next day.

Anyhow the point is I was supposed to spend time with my family. But now as you can see, I spend most of the time in front of my computer looking for videos. Darn!!

Look at me!!

As I was having dinner with Derrick and Christina, we were taking about the resent mission trip that the CF had organised to Orang Asli Settlement which I have missed because of my Palapes training. One of the things that we discussed about was the facial products that girls packed for the trip. The stuff are like Moisturiser, toner, eye cream and lot more which is alien to me. While most man on the other hand don’t even bother to the extend that we take bath with only one type of body shower. (I put here MOST man so not to offend those metro sexual guys… hehe…)

Well, me and Derrick bought our bus ticket back home to KL. Well as I was packing I realise some thing about me. My luggages back home are mostly tech related stuff. As you can see in the picture, my shirt and books take up not even half of it. I need to carry 3 bags to fit all my stuff.

What is the most important question in our life? Is it the question of which job should I take? For student, it might be which college or university should I go to? For people who is young and desperate as I’m, who should I be with or married or is she the right one? For parents question like, what will become of my kids if I take this job? What will happen if I let them out with their other friends till late at night? Will my kids be safe if I employ a mate to look after them?? For grandparents question like, did I do spend enough time to my kids when there were young? What will become of me if they got their own family? Where would I live??

As you can see, different age group have different question. This question often relate to the future. The unknown in life. Some time we keep asking “small” questions as above. We often take granted of our days (time) that God has given us. That goes to me most of all. To tell the truth I don’t manage my time well. I watch movies, hanging out with friends to say the less.

And most of the time we (I) miss the BIG question that is “what would I do NOW if were to have only today to live?”

I’m not going to write long about this as I’m really troubled by this question. As time is short, I really hope that God will award me with a new day each day. My hand is shaking, my heart is heavy and I’m really worried now. Do pray for me ya. TQ

“The years of our life are seventy, or even by reason of strength eighty; yet their span is but toil and trouble; they are soon gone, and we fly away.” Psalm 90:10

“So teach us to number our days that we may get a heart of wisdom.” Psalm 90:12

It has been some time since I’ve updated my blog. A lot has change & happened also since then. Ups & downs. But most of it is downs.

During the 1month holidays, I was needed to attend a training in the so to call jungle which god has shown me a great deal about life by using the most unexpected thing. He uses the ants to teach me about forgiveness. He uses the situation that I experience to teach me to perseverance, to hold on. From it I also got to know that I’m not 'strong' so to call because I'm very uneasy with uncertainty. I needed to know facts. Thankful enough, god has been faithful & full of his unfailing grace, has pull me out from my breaking point which I almost enter the state of depression. Yes, I’m a person who is very vulnerable to depression and stress/tension. I'll get freak out when things happen unexpectedly.

After the training that I had, I went home for my university semester holidays. I didn't spend sufficient time with my family members. But 1thing for sure is that, I’ve spend about rm1000 in Just 2days I went out to LowYat plaza as I also on the mission to build a computer rig for my dearest 2ndnarry school friend. The money I spend on was an ADSL wireless router, battery charger, DVD burners and lots more so to better the computer at home.

I then went to HUGE camp which was in Malacca. The intention I go for this camp was to catch up with the youth of my church as it has been 3years of my life I spend in my studies at the north of Malaysia 1year in Kedah and 2years in USM Eng Campus. Really get the honour to interact with them. The sad part for this camp is that I was the oldest among all the campers! Other then youth pastor or leader! I was shock to here them talking about girls in the camp, which is hot or not. For me I some how find it funny. I also came to realise that I was once like them talking about girls, getting their numbers and of cause hoping to start a relationship... But now as I grow up I know what to look for in a life time partner. I may not know every thing in the search of the life partner, but I trust god will tell me as I walk the walk of life. It true that there are pretty & god loving ones their, but GG is the 1. I got to shear my experience as a university student to some of the youth as they just finished their SPM and STPM. I'm really happy and thankful for what has happen to me in the past as what I says in Romans 8:28 "28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose." God is good! I was touch by the camp in a way of the worship and the sermon sheared so recover from my depression. I had to leave the camp early as i have to go back to campus to start my new semester.

I started off the new semester with a heavy heart. The result that I got for the last semester was not as I’ve expected. I was having self conflict. Why I got this kind of result thus finding the reason why I didn't eel thankful for the result I got. But true enough, god has answered my cries & saw my helplessness. I was selfish!

I was supposed to go back to KL during Christmas week conjunction with my birthday. I was planning to go for my church youth camp which is the first after 3 or more years. But since I forgot to buy bus ticket home, I stayed back in campus. I had fun during the week end which I get to joint PBBC on their trip to Pangkalan Hulu to deliver some goods to the church over there to help the orang asli there. I fell into the drain then where was a good experience for me!! It was being Christmas and birthday present for me. That day I drove back to campus from Pangkalan Hulu to take over Max’s place with the van which is the longest I’ve ever driven. That night we went to Miss Kooh’s house for their open house which was very “filling”. The food they served was beyond words!! After that we went to PBBC to have a Christmas service which the church ordered 1000 sticks of satay. I only manage to eat not more then 10 sticks!!

On my birthday, I got invitation for breakfast. We went to eat tim sum somewhere in Parit Buntar. Well, it was kind of touching to think back now. I celebrated my birthday with my CF friends and in the afternoon with my dear classmate. Why? Because I only receive 1 birthday cake, compare to my other friends. I guess it’s a bit of mix feeling as I was happy because I manage to hide my birthday and sad because no one know about it (now as you can see I’m a very complicated guy, keep on contradict myself).

In conjunction with charismas on the 25^th and the 2007 New Year, our CF had a Christmas celebration a.k.a. Thanks Giving on the 28^th. I jointed the decoration team to decorate the lecture hall on the night of the event. By now I know it is not easy to decorate. Sze-Lyn which was the decoration coordinator and the event secretary worked day and night to finish up the snow flicks and stuff!! Really have respect for her as she was really putting effort to make this event a success and seeing her work her heart out and trusting god along the way!! How I wish…. I skipped some class along the way. On the day of the event we were allow to decorate the hall few hours before the event starts. Imagine we had to think of what we need before hand and if we some how miss out some thing we will have a big time solving it (of cause the problem didn’t occur). But I’m really blessed to help in a way in the decoration for that night. I got to learn about trusting others and being slow to anger!

Well on New Year, I manage to buy my ticket back home to KL. Well thanks to Kin Lee who reminded me and Max Ting for buying the ticket at the last minute. If wasn’t for him, I don’t think I can get back. It was my second time going back to KL at night. I had to call my parents to pick me up from Pudu Bas Station I reach KL around 3am. Really malu to call them up in the middle of the night from their sleep. I spend time with my friends back in KL. We went to Domes, TGI Fridays and some other place. Those friends are my dear friends are Ernest, Fook Sim & Alwin How. Really want to thank them for their friendship!

As the weekend holiday was not long, I was back in campus after 3days. Didn’t really rest during the holidays and was hoping to start the semester with new hope and a new image. I’ve experience God for myself. If I were to find god in the tree, I would worship it. But now I’ve found God. The God that shows His endless grace, mercy and forgiveness flowing in my life.

Throughout my life as it has been, a lot has happen. Going Through the ups and the downs. I’m still struggle in knowing who am I, learning to walk right in God’s way, learning to have self control, leaning to say thank you when been given compliments and more. But one thing for sure God has made his way in my life.

“The LORD is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer, my God, my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield, and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. I call upon the LORD, who is worthy to be praised, and I am saved from my enemies.” Psalm 18:2-3