“And if it seems evil to you to serve Jehovah, choose this day whom you will serve, whether the gods which your fathers served Beyond the River, or the gods of the Amorites in whose land you live. But as for me and my house, we will serve Jehovah.”

Joshua 24:15

Out of the down and busyness of the pass week, this verse have been ringing in me this whole week. I’ve heard pastors, elder of the church and even my friend said this to me. I don’t know what to say of it.

After much seeking God and taking some time to find out this verse in the bible and after that looking on why Joshua of the Bible said so.

The 1^st time I read the entire chapter seeing that what God has done for the people of Israel and his faithfulness. And before Joshua die of old age, god gave the Israelite a choice to choose which God they want to worship. Such heart broken! I’ve been through heart broken experience just recently in my whole life and I can tell you that God is being God! The people who he saves turn their back on Him.

Anyway what kept me wonder of this verse is that when Joshua spoke “But as for me and my house, we will serve Jehovah.” Does he mean only his family? The 2^nd reason is that this book has the same name as I do. So I just wonder why my parent could have come out this name for me. Is it by chance of so?

Lately I’ve visited a church in Penang and the theme of the Sunday school there was “The Joshua Generation”

The question now is. Is this my calling of my life? _{Ok you guys can ignore this part..}

Lord I surrender all that I’m to you,

Take charge in my life and Jesus,

Teach me your way.

Amen

Last night, the whole campus breaks into darkness which I was just about to finish up my design. But end up in darkness. The only thing I could do was to sit down and pray.

I’m now in my friend’s room surfing as I upload this entry to you guys. My internet connection in my room was disconnected due to the power failure yesterday morning.

I attended the talk on industrial training of my campus, which the talk really snatches off and took always my moral to this very moment as I write on. I’m feeling down and under the clouds and I suddenly feel that I’m clamped up with works that is still yet to fulfil. Heavy burdens suddenly just fall on my back and I’m stuck to the ground.

The wanting to know what I will and can be in the future is really clouding my vision. Need to let go and let God do the things that He does best. I was speechless and my mouth is hardened to say and sing the song “How Great is Our God” just now in CF.

What I expect of God (to a certain extend) as if we are limiting what God can do and under estimating what he know the best for us. As you can see now, I’m contradicts my own thoughts and thinking. Sound childish? That I think is what happens constantly in my mind always.

Do you recall back anytime when your friends gave you moon cake in conjunction of moon cake festive? Well I can’t recall any as no one gave me other that my family members. Sob… sob…

Anyway thanks to a sister, I got a gift from her. A gift from the outward may look simple. As simple as it seems it does bring back good memories of my childhood time and the things in life. Were every thing then seems so simple and easy. Not much worries then. Hahhaa….

Anyway a gift or even a simple thank from anyone from you friends are always sweet and nice!!

Thank you Sister!! You look beautiful when you smile. Smile always ya!!

中秋节快乐 to all ya!!

_{For those who don’t know what I’m talking about you can skip to the next blog entry ya… :)}

Some time I just wonder, when I see my friends go for class. Going for class that are super ultra boring, make me ask why they do as such. They go because of attendants or reasons other than listening to the boring lecture that are in front talking things that don’t make senses now until exam?

Looking back at myself as a Christian, some time I question my intentions. The intension of going for class is it merely to bring good testimony that Christians are good and because they are good they go for class, never missing anyone of it?

The main point here is that some time we do things because it is needed to be done as our job. So some time we will have the mind set that God need us, He needs us to do his works and etc.

The bible always reminded me that God choose us to be his hand on earth. God doesn’t need us to show the world, those who believe in Him will go class every day. He has the power to harden or even to soften any ones heart that he wants.

So it is the intention that’s God is looking at. If we continue on, don’t we just sound like the Pharisees in the olden days where Jesus walked the earth?

A point to ponder

Last night as I close my eyes as the closing of the day, after having a short conversation to God I went into dream land.

I can tell you now as I awake, I was really troubled by the dream I had. I lost my camera (EOS 400D) how can I be. It sounds so real, real as though I was living the dream. Of cause every thing around me does not make senses when you are in a dream. But the fact I lost my camera. In the rain I drove back to the place to get my camera back.

Then I woke up from the dream, it was raining very heavy out side. So I woke up to close my window and wash my mouth and continue on my sleep. The time then was 615am. My roommate then was watching movie, after “sahor”. As I dose back, I continue my dream! How often do you get that? Continued the dream in search of my camera!

However I did not end the dream. Remember how often the when you watch the Chinese drama series nearing the story climax? The story just stop there and then and you are so egger to wait for the next episode. That was the feeling.

I woke up around 945am just in time for my lecture, and I woke up with thanks giving as it was all just a dream. A dream that I don’t want it to happen in reality. Thank God!

As some of you might know, I prefer to walk to class now days. As I walk along the path way leading to the hall, I saw the day was really beautiful, there were puddle of water every where which was seriously bring out the joy in me. Saw nature at its best. Reflections of object off the water puddle added with the cold wind that breeze through my face and my whole body which is some thing you don’t get everyday!

As I things of this things, I realise that God is in control. After the bad dream I had, the worries I had from the dream, I can see God will be there for us all. I can’t stop to imagine how was the earth when god finished it on the seventh day? if what I’ve experience seeing nature at its best, saying it was beautiful, I think when God finish creating the earth I was superb! And God said “it was good” huh?? “It was good”? That’s it? Well our God is Holy. All perfect!

Again I want to bring out this verse in my heart:

²to proclaim your love in the morning and your faithfulness at night

Psalm 92:2

Empty stomach = Hungry

Hungry = Head Pain

Head pain = Can not study

The one thing I learned today!! Does it make sens?

This song make me jumping and dancing all day long just don’t know why is it so? May be I’m crazy kua… hahha… crazy for God is some thing good I guess..Yours Is The Kingdom _{By Joel Houston}

_{Album: God He Reigns}

Verse 1

Yours is the Kingdom
And the power
And the glory forever is Yours
Heaven and earth bow down
In the wonder of Your Name
Heaven is open
Death is broken
And the glory forever is Yours
Nothing can overcome
The power of Your Name

Pre-chorus
King above kings
All the universe will sing
Everlasting God
You are wonderful
You are wonderful

Chorus
And the shout of the earth
Will be Your praise
God forever
And the light unto all
Will be Your wonderful Name
For the glory Lord is Yours
God forever
All the glory Lord is Yours

Hahha, this is some thing for the morning. Found this as I read one of my friend’s blog. Kind of funny which I think is kind of useless…. Wawawa….

To all my friends and family i give you this:-

Choo... choo...!! As a week full of activities lies ahead of me, not to say the tests and the finals around to hunt me down, I find myself lazy…

So I guess it is time to full steam ahead as I pass through this week. Today will be a full day, same goes for tomorrow and the week end. Cranked up by all this not to say some personal issues that is still to settle.

May God have mercy on me as I say:
²to proclaim your love in the morning and your faithfulness at night

Psalm 92:2
amen!!

This song have been playing in my heart for sometime now want to share it with you guys!

By Your Side
Hillsong

Verse 1
O dear God we ask for your favour
Come and sweep through this place
Oh we desire You

Verse 2
I just want to be with You be where You are
Dwell in your presence oh God
O I want to walk with You

Chorus:
And I will climb this mountain
And I'll step of the shore
And I have chosen to follow
And be by Your side forever more

Tell me what You want me to do Lord God
Tell me what You want for my life
Its Your's O God it's Yours

Do your will
Have Your way
Be Lord God in this place
O I want Your will to be done

Still got few weeks left till my finals and I’ve not really study.

Aarrrh!!

Weee…. I’ve come a long way to find myself. Yes! A really long way to do so. Lately I have not been myself. A lot of time I’ve let the things around me to control me and to weight me down so that I could not move. Some of the things are relationships, friends and studies.

As I’ve put my focus on God, I find that life is not that bad after all. Really one le. Knowing God is looking on me. Looking on my life. I’m really glad that He has opened up my eyes to be who I’m. To know who JEntol is and I’m proud to be so.

Remember last time when we were young? We are always ask to write thing such as, our likings and dislike? Well I find it’s a good way to know who I’m. Here goes!!

I’m:-

*Would love to find time to sea side or so place special to have time alone with God!

*Love to hang around people

*Noisy

*Like to talk nonsense

*Love to eat (I mean eat a lot!!)

*I love singing

*I love dancing

*I love photography

*Like to hang around kids (to talk and to play with them)

*Hang around senior citizen (as they are wise and have a lot of things to say of life)

*I’m desperate (still looking around for a life partner not because I’m lonely ya)

*Love to drive people around in the church van

*Slow in calculation

*Love to sit and do noting at times Muahahaha…

I don’t:-

*People who like to fake around (paling dislike this type of people!!!)

*People who like to talk big

*People who don’t let me do the things that I like

*People who like to talk bad about other people in my face

Things that I look forward to change. What and why?

*Jealousy

*Angry, short tempted

Here I present to you JEntol!! Muahahhahhaa…. Currently I’m experiencing over excitement as I’ve found myself. So please bear with me as I suit myself ya!!

All glory and honour and praise to be on God alone!

Amen

Feeling tired le...

I really have not recover from camp.

Skipping class is good?

Well I've skipped 2classes today..

Is this me?

I hope not.

I've crying quietly each night before i go to bed. Asking question of; why, how, who and when. I can only look on from afar and say

"I love you"

I pray to God each day as I think of you. So that my heart will not loose my focus in on you oh God!

It's time to GET UP & MOVE ON!
Let god be the solution!
Amen!!

Wawawawa, I found this personality test thingy from Jia Hui’s blog. Well it is darn exciting to see my result.

My personality type came out to be ENFP. What is it? It is “ENFPs are introspective, values-oriented, inspiring, social and extremely expressive. They actively send their thoughts and ideas out into the world as a way to bring attention to what they feel to be important, which often has to do with ethics and current events. ENFPs are natural advocates, attracting people to themselves and their cause with excellent people skills, warmth, energy and positivity. ENFPs are described as creative, resourceful, assertive, spontaneous, life-loving, charismatic, passionate and experimental.”For more can click here.

I kind of like the list job match that they have came out. Check it out for yourself ya. Very exciting.

Some of the jobs are Art Director, Church Worker, Designer, Journalist, Psychologist/Counsellor, Teacher/Professor, Social Worker. Which I love to take up and I find it suit me most!!

There are some job witch I would laugh at if I were to take them up in the future. Job like Accountant/Auditor, Politician, can they fit me? Wawawaw…

I watched a show called “Evan almighty”. I cried in the mid of the show. Because of the words that hit me hard as below:

“If you pray for patinas, do you think God will give them patients or the opportunities to be patient? If you pray for courage, do you think god will give you courage or does He give you the opportunities to be courageous? If you were to pray for the family to be close together, would God give the fuzzy feelings or does God give them the opportunities to love one another?”

Really got me thinking of the things that I pray for… lets ponder

As it was lunch time in stuff café in campus, one could see student flooding the place. The place is packed with people buzzing a round with their food, people laughing, complaining and so on. You know the average that student will talk about. As a group of girls walk into the café, eyes here and there of the café look to them. Eye balls and heads turn to look at them to check them out as they make their way to their usual sits.

As I’m use to having friends around me most of the time, I some how find it fun to sit alone in a crowded place and to take my lunch. Believe it or not, it was really enjoying at that moment to observe how people react and do. It was a break for me in my life then. Some people look to quiet place to relax, but I was relaxed at the busy moment of the day at café. Flashes of though and ideas flash into my head. Was really a time alone moment for me.

As I start the 2^nd half the semester. I can’t feel that the sorrow, tears and confusion that is yet to come. Keeping in steps of my academic has proven to be a challenge. Keeping my self and my emotion as a person in check is also a hill to climb for me.

What am I expecting this 2^nd half from God and myself?? That is some things that I want to pray about.