Mess up life..

It has been a downward spiral for me in these resent days… A fall which I will come back to look for me. Questions of human relationships and self reflection have driven me to a stage where I can not trust myself. My spiritual life was fluctuating as such of the world economy. Just some time I need a big hit from others on the face!

Was chatting with one of my close friend the other day online and here is the conversation (Below are the real conversation without anything hidden).

Me: anyway... u do what is needed to be done la... sorry if i've been an ass to u.... jz to assure u tat i'm doing my best... not taking u guys for granted... thank for all the help.... sorry and thank u..

Me: cant do much for u... cz i 'm worst than u... do bear in mind tat my png is jz 2.33 :(

TT: ?okay.. really need to study. but actually i got a feeling you dont have confidence in yourself.. Abit of advice la. dun care la wat other ppl think.. *i nvr thought or say ur an ass b4 and nvr will. i believe u have a stand. ur principle. watever it is, stick to it, be confident wiv it. ppl will respsct you for your stand. im not sure to how much is the extend you belive dat Gods controling your destiny, but you control your destiny too. okay so you have pointer below 3 but so wat? do something about it then.. show others you can make it above 3 too.

TT: you dun have to thank me le.. the truth is ur a nice person.. always trying to keep others happy, taking care of others.. however ur studies is not so gud.. not fair rite? sure is.. there are ppl who feel sorry for you.. but for how long?do you want them to keep on feeling sympatethic to you? of course not rite.. so time to make a change man.. focus on ur studiees come out top dis year..

Some time its sucks with life. But hey, how can the day come before the night or night before the day?

Psalm 139
For the choir director: A psalm of David.

1 O Lord, you have examined my heart
and know everything about me.
2 You know when I sit down or stand up.
You know my thoughts even when I’m far away.
3 You see me when I travel
and when I rest at home.
You know everything I do.
4 You know what I am going to say
even before I say it, Lord.
5 You go before me and follow me.
You place your hand of blessing on my head.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too great for me to understand!
7 I can never escape from your Spirit!
I can never get away from your presence!
8 If I go up to heaven, you are there;
if I go down to the grave,[a] you are there.
9 If I ride the wings of the morning,
if I dwell by the farthest oceans,
10 even there your hand will guide me,
and your strength will support me.
11 I could ask the darkness to hide me
and the light around me to become night—
12 but even in darkness I cannot hide from you.
To you the night shines as bright as day.
Darkness and light are the same to you.
13 You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body
and knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!
Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.
15 You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion,
as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.
16 You saw me before I was born.
Every day of my life was recorded in your book.
Every moment was laid out
before a single day had passed.
17 How precious are your thoughts about me,[b] O God.
They cannot be numbered!
18 I can’t even count them;
they outnumber the grains of sand!
And when I wake up,
you are still with me!
19 O God, if only you would destroy the wicked!
Get out of my life, you murderers!
20 They blaspheme you;
your enemies misuse your name.
21 O Lord, shouldn’t I hate those who hate you?
Shouldn’t I despise those who oppose you?
22 Yes, I hate them with total hatred,
for your enemies are my enemies.
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 Point out anything in me that offends you,
and lead me along the path of everlasting life.

*Everything has been random in this post. As I'm saying my mind out with unrelated topic all in the same moment. But the Psalms concludes it all...

Thank God and Little Potato.