This week is rather full of ups and downs for me as I have encountered some problem in my relationship with God. Really, from my experiences once you are not right with God, problems start to come in. one of the problem is that I can’t pray well… for those who is following the 40 days fast and prayer for Malaysia as she is near to her independent day would notice that some time I pray with no direction. Other than that, my whole day will be very cloudy (if you know what I mean)… But as the end of the week approaching, I felt the grace of God was there for me!! Glory to Him, I’m still valuable to Him… If not I would have gone to dust for a long time liau….

Well the week end for me was kind of packed…. Here we go again!!

On Thursday,

Thanks God it did not rain (as it was raining for 2 Thursday morning) on the morning, which enable us to carry out our Geometic lab work. Well it was fun in the beginning as this is our first onsite surveying with the real instrument in hand. As the sun slowly climb up to the top of our head, we soon feel the hotness of the sun!! That is why there are few girls go for Civil Engineering (man.. should have applied for material where there are plenty of girls, may be can tackle some of them…. Wawawaawawa..)

Me With The Leveling Instrument

Sze-Lyn & Me with the Stuff meater

On Friday night,

I & Kok Mun went to the Chinese Methodist Church USM Student Fellowship. Being literate in reading Chinese word is not a good thing!! Well when come to worship, I can only follow the people around me sing as I don’t know how to read the lyric. Wawawawawa….

The theme for the night was, Home (that is what I think)…. It really got me thinking of home again. The relationship with our brothers and sisters and even our parents back at home. In CF we might be too focus on our studies and our friends around us, but not home. We then break into small groups of 4 to 5, and talk on the subject that is HOME and nothing else….

Come to think of it, being the only Christian at home is not such a bad thing as one will learn to reason and persevere. Remember we are here by no chance but by His grace. This people would have a deeper root of believing in Jesus as one will ask, “is believing in Jesus worth it when my mother dislike me” or may be “is it worth it to believe in Jesus, when my father hit me for not going to the temple to offer prayers”. This is some of the questions that believers coming from Christian families would not ask thus being shallow in the perseverance and the word of God (people like me).

On Saturday,

Our cell group went for an outing to Penang Island for the Pekom PC Fair and to buy some gift for the seniors who is going to graduate in 2weeks time… We started off from our campus around 10am after picking Chee Koon from his house. My friend Choo Hong hop into the van to catch a ride ending up buying stuff total up to RM1500 plus at the end of the day!!

As for the ride to Penang Island was really dangerous as the driver was Kok Mun who press the accelerator to the max (not Max Ting)!! Anyhow, with the grace of God we reach PESA in no time with the guidance of Jinny (and of cause with Kok Mun “F1 Driving” Skill). After parking the van in PESA which cost us Rm2, we went into the fair.

Well like any other PC Fair, the place was jam pack with people as the Chinese saying goes “people mountain, people sea”. The place is 4 time smaller that of KL’s PC Fair if compared. The HOT item was the 1GB thumb drive which every one was buying because it cost just only RM73 (which is the lowest) compare to the last PC Fair was the 512MB thumb drive which cost RM63. other than that was the DVD Writer which cost only RM135.

Other than the produce that were sold, we meet a number of friends from USM main campus and our very own Eng. Campus. We stop to say our grettings and for sure pop the obvious question “WHY DID YOU COME HERE?” (da…. Its PC Fair la… of cause buy computer stuff la) or “WHAT DID YOU BUY?” We can’t get to talk much as the place was full of pushing and noise.

The Things (very Proud things) that I got from PC Fair & the trip to Penang Island

After that, with our proud items that we bought from the fair (it may be just a pan drive but the proud part is YOU don’t have it!!) and stuff it all into the van. We then make our way to Perangi Mall to buy gift for our seniors (Of cause we though of buying pen drive from the fair each for every senior but no budget). By the time we reach there around 4:30pm plus. We meet up with Yen Wai.

Well Chee Koon & Jinny was doing the shopping for our fellow seniors, me, Kok Mun, Derrick, Yen Wai & Choo Hong tag along. With our pocket burn out because buying our stuff at PC Fair, we can only see, touch, feel and if lucky whishing we could buy the items there!! I saw the weigh with fortune machine that is hard to come by now days in shopping complex as it is replace by digital ones.

How can one go Penang and not enjoy its road site food stalls?!?! After finishing shopping, we then head to the “Sunway Lorong” (that is what all Penangnite call it) which got its name from the hotel which situated nearby. Eating beside the buzzing road with the windy night blowing its wind on the place brought a new meaning to it!! Well I ate curry mee which can’t taste as good as the porridge with pig’s spare parts…

"Lorong Sunway"

Look at that!! Yammy....

Very happy faces (I think so) after A good Meal

Well we went back with our stomach filled. Thanks God we made it back to campus and our respected homes around 9:30pm safe and sound.

Wow... This week has been a hectic for me as I have attend 2 different orientation program 1 for the Palapes & for the campus's CF welcoming night & exhibition week.

This is the 1st time I am having juniors, in other words I will be called a senior. It might sound wired to some of you. In church or in 2ndnary School I never acted or even called a senior. I don't really fit well in the seniority system because I don’t act like a senior and 2^nd I do like to mix around the young people or juniors compare to those who is older.

Orientation night for Palapes.

I don't really like it because I fell it is time wasting. Because I spend most of my time waiting. But it is not all bad apples, we had LDK (latihan dalam kumpulan). The group in charge gave the junior some time to know each other. Then he tough them about how to manage their time on their studies & training. I didn't get the time to spend with the exhibition team & time for myself (most of all the time with God)

CF Welcoming night.

Well it was a relief night for me from the buzz of life. There were few new faces that were present that night! The night began with worship that was lead my Simon Chai. I really enjoyed the worship session then. I felt the

present of God was there. I found my weakness during the games time, guess what I'm scared of balloon (please don't burst the balloon in front of me k?). Anyhow in my group I manage to meet new juniors & get to know them more... (not just only girls la). Yap.. Back to our game. It is fun butnot boring.. Of cause. It was

lead by Wai Loon & his helpers... The food was not bad! Considering I was one of the last people to get my mouth filled where all the good stuff in the food was taken!

The Dance.

Me, Jinny, Aaron, Jason, E-Way & Christina did a dance for the welcoming night. We had the practice half a week before the actual day. 1st time I tried up the dance I felt like quitting it caused it is very-very hard! Then I realize that I'm a type of person who avoid thing that are hard to execute. Glory to God alone! He helped me to overcome this problem. After the 3rd practice we had, I enjoyed the dance & by then I really looking forward. During that day when we did the dance (which I'm really looking forward to) I did my best and really happy because the hall in KCK1 shared a laugh or two resulting from my mistake. Thanksgiving to God alone!

This week is really a busy week for me as I only get to sleep at night. By sleeping early, I was expected to wake up early. But no! I always wake up 15minute before class starts! Really struggle to manage my time. As from my previous post I said starting the day off with a prayer & taking breakfast is vital. Really hope God will make a way for me!

Umm.... After the week I ate a good dinner of duck mee.... Umm...

The starting of the semester did not start with what I've expected. Why I titled this blog is because in my whole life this is the 1st time I fainted during my Palapes training! Well the experience of fainting is not fun at all for me as I fainted in front of my junior intake! What a shame! As I have advanced into a higher rank in the Palapes hierarchy so as the same goes for my fitness level!

The 1st thing that I experience during my black out was I cannot control my movement, not even opening my eyes. I tried very hard to gain control but I just can't. What my friends told me is that I fell to the ground very slowly, by sitting on the ground & then lying on it. They thought that I was playing a fool out of them. They thought so because both of my eyes were opened widely. But come to think of that moment, I can't even remember looking up into the blue sky that was above of me. From what I think is that my mind restarted its system. The only thing I was able to do then was to listen & to feel the buzz of my fellow friend who tried to help my by carrying me to a shaded area where I could rest and regain my consciousness. One of my friends who helped me up told me that my body was very soft, it was as if my bones were broken.

After 1 minute or so I regained my sight. Then I can't even sit straight but to lay down! It took me around 30minute to be able to stand up straight & 1day to recover fully to my normal state!

The possible answer to this is that I missed my lunch & breakfast! In addition to that is that during the holidays I was too lazy to work out or to stay fit but to sit around doing nothing but sleep, eat & more. This goes same to my Christian life where by I don’t read the bible nor even have a little bit of time to spend with God. And at times I do get spiritual black outs! Some of those examples are like giving into sin and at times I even balm Him for the mishaps that happened to me.

While in Rom 8:28 say that all things that is happening & has happen, good or bad, all things worked in the good of His people! He has been & forever will be the same! If we don’t study His word, talk to Him & trust Him, we will forever just carry the name 'Christian' only! Plus we will be easily subjected to the attack of the Satan!

Take your early breakfast on the WORD OF GOD before we face the world!! As his Word promises a hold lot more the world could ever offer us.

After attending church to day, I went home & load all my stuff in the car. Well it’s sad to go back to campus because I'm too used to the holidays given (3 month). During the holidays i joined the FES Camp Cam. In Cameron Highlands, joint the church youth to visit the MV Doulos in Port Kelang, joined the youth combined, home group & much more! There were the moments. Well I reached my campus around 4pm, and got my room key. My new room is located at the ground floor. One could see my bed the 1st thing when they open the door. I consider it as a blessing from God. Why you might ask. Because I don't want to be too “alone” as it well temp me to do other unwholesome things! Happy in a way that God has answered my prayer! There's still a long way ahead of me in this semester. I got a really bad result this semester, but if I still don't do well this semester, I'll be kicked out from university for good. Come to think about it, I would 'pull my Mother's face' like what Chinese people would say.

Hey... It has been 1 week plus i wanted to update my blog... But until now I can't seem to find the right computer to do son as the internet connection in campus is kind of slow. With it I'm not sure if I'll will give the best description on my life here in Campus. Wawawa… Now days since I got my trusty PDA, I’m able to write my blog anywhere and at any time. There is a lot I have to say to you all in this time but I just can’t seem to find the right words to put it into ya… So I’ll try my best to update.