Tick-tock

Time passes me by tick by tick…. As it flies by, it will leaves behind a train of happiness, sorrow, understanding, confusion, satisfaction, regrets and so on.

I’m really drained out now as I write out each line to you readers. Drain out as in mentally and spiritually. "Don’t give up" people say to me. Those are the words that will come out of me if I meet people who as such. It’s not as easy as it seems. It seems that a lot of things are yet to be done. But by knowing that, I do not wish to do. It’s like a computer which is overloaded with information and its doom to crash. Am I like the computer?

Today I miss the whole morning of class that is from 9am to 1pm. Am I that weak? Am I that tired? Just 3days of going to bed late. Is it worth it skipping class to gain back the energy? What would I do with the energy now? For myself? For God? Knowing that I have to keep up with my studies but what am I doing here writing this blog entry?? Will I get to study master with the result at hand? Will I even pass the grade? Am I like what was describe in the song “Grade 'A' Student” by Jason Lo?? When I grow up will I get a good job? Will I able to support my life? Today is my mum’s birthday, will I able to find a wife? Will when will I find her? What is God saying about it? As now I saw my friend which I have a crash on line listening to the song “Who Am I” by Casting Crows. Who am I?? Am I ready to tell her “I love you”? What will be the outcome of it if I tell her? Will we live happy ever after? Is she the only one? Am I being childish? Am I worshiping you? what can i do to follow you? what can i do to let myself down and follow you all my life? Can you save me? How long do i have time on earth to praise your name?

As describe in the book of Revelation. “If you have ears, listen to what the Spirit says to the churches.” Lord I’m listening...