Letting Go..

Pondering on my future, I ask myself this question “what am I going to be after university? With the result I have, am I going to be successful in the working world?” these are just the starting part of my questioning. The scariest question is yet to come. It sounds like this “are you ready to face the broken, crocket, sinful, fallen world outside?” As I ponder this questions on my bed, as I take walk along the long corridor which leaded from my school to the hostel or maybe some time as I jog around the campus, this scary question always pop up into my mind. I’m rally hunted by the world and the fear of following the world as we see now

Tell you the truth, I’m not those people who can stand and face pressure face to face. I’m a person that has very little self confident where with this I can be pushed around. If you know me well enough, one will notice this. But I’m very strict when it comes to my faith on The One who made the heaven and the earth. But still there is a potential of me falling. That is why I want to thank God for his constant faithfulness and His unfailing love that covers multitude of sin.

Coming back to the notion, I’m really sad when I heard one of my friend told me that she will be planning to go for a long term mission trip after her final year I her studies. “WOW!” I can only say. I’m sad not because she is going for mission trip but I’m sad because when I compare to her plans of going for a mission trip while I was planning to go climb Mount KK in Sabah. As I compare, I realise that I was not looking to do His work. Don’t get me wrong. Going for holiday is not wrong as we need time for ourselves oh. But the problem is that I was not putting priority on Him. If I was to lay down my life and put aside my selfish desire as it is in Matthew 16:24-26 like what I always clamed I do, I would look for opportunities to glorify His name. Like this little friend here, she went all out to find opportunities to do so.

This friend of mine is not any friend, she is very successful in her studies and most important is that she love God and she look to Him for inspiration and as far as knowing her she always uphold her life into His hand and she told me many time that she is willing to go where God leads her. And many times she has done what she says! And I can only thank God for His work on her life.

At times words come very easy (as I always believe, but word in the same time can be powerful), but when words are compliment by action is a very powerful. I believe is even more powerful that words that used at the right time and place. Action speaks louder than words.

So here I’m going to make a pubic statement that I will not regret.

“Lord,

As I’m your servant, I lay down my life unto you hands which I have. I’ve been superficial in most of my doings and saying. As what I’ve sung unto You “let the things I say and do be founded by my faith in you” I don’t want to be just words but Lord I pray that You will empower me to do so as I give and surrender all to You! You are strong when I’m a my weakest and Lord I pray that You will use my flaws and weakness to honour name. people will see that it is all about You and not from me. As I’ve my own desire and my hope and dreams, I just lay it all down to You as my Lord. Teach me your ways, open up my eyes and let me see Your plans. Lord Jesus, I also want to pray that I’ll be able to answer to Your call but before that I pray that You will give me ears that can hear your voice, the voice of the Father. As I listen, I pray that I’ll answer to Your call with on question asked. May I be the one who You will use Your plans! In Jesus name I pray.

Amen!”